Thursday, May 15, 2003
# batsu game ya! batsu game ya! # Nyoronyoro! ::squeaks:: Kawaii! ... ok, Icchan's a grown man, but like I care! :P Been hanging about in this huge DC anime hub and I found someone to get tons of cool MP3s off of. Sure they've gone offline now, and I only managed to get some Licensed by Royal and several Angelic Layer ones. But I've seen the person several times so I should think they'll be back and I'll be downloading away (as long as I can get a slot, that is :S ). But after listening to the Angelic Layer OSTs & the few characters songs I got before they left, I really wanna watch the series again! That was a fantastic series! It also had the best ending! More to the point, there was an ending! Most series just stop ::sniff:: I'll get back to that point... ::tears up::
Anyway, as to what I've been doing since I last came here... well, my mind has been throwing rabbits around, but that's just cos it's adopted that particular verb & noun just now (last verb I had was 'eating', so the mind was eating plenty of rabbits, or whatever happened to be in front of me :S ). What can I say? It gets bored when it gets quiet. :S
But seriously, what I've been doing... Nyoooooo!!! ::throws a tantrum:: Jungle wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu FINISHED!!! Even the Deluxe series is complete! Only 6 episodes! Not fair! I wasn't prepared! (ok, I never could be, but that's hardly the point!) I've decided I'm going to hunt down the creater of Jungle, shake their hand, compliment them, glomp them, then threaten them to make more. If they've run out of ideas, I'm sure I can come up with some stuff... actually I have been in anticipation. There could be dimension jumping to see 'what if's for the different characters. I also think there should be some more time travel. Or Guu plays around with the magical stick and brings some ppl from the past. Instantly I think samurai/ninja types fighting some evil that just happens to come along with them. There are so many possibilites, with those ideas and I'm sure I could come up with more. Like the plants could come alive... ::remembers the plants with the jam eyes:: ...or at least, more alive... and could start attacking ppl. Oh oh oh! Or there could be dinosaurs or aliens! I mean, come on, even such simple ideas as those haven't been touched! There's gotta be more!!!
My mind taunted me last night... I thought I was doing really well, alone, concentrating on maths & exercise... but no, apparently subconsciously, I still wanna... 'play'... :S Damn, that was... an... 'annoying'... dream! I mean, ignoring the flying around in a toy plane with a weird joystick that wouldn't obey me, trying to capture all the laughing cookies that kept shooting at me, there was... weirdness... ::sweatdrop:: I'm certainly a lot bolder in my dreams, I can say that! I had to wake myself up to make sure I was dreaming, cos I couldn't deal with it being real. I wake up, open my eyes, check everything looks like I expect it to, go 'thank god' and go straight back to sleep to continue the dream. I may have erased the last few minutes, but I got paranoid about that later, wondering if it happened or not. ::sweatdrop:: I really am hopeless when I get worked up over dreams like that! ::hangs head::
Moving on... Oh yeah, why I didn't blog yesterday... My dad disconnected me again. So I use up all the bandwidth. I can't help it. I need my anime and MP3s. ;) I'm sure I had proper stuff to say too... well... let's see. I was at the Occupational Therapist again. Cycled there myself this time! Big step, that! :) She was mostly just encouraging me, but she also advised me that once the exam is over, I've to replace the revision time with more exercise of some sort. I guess another walk with the dog won't be too strenuous for me.
Been doing quite a bit of cycling lately. Been going down the beach almost daily now. Plan to keep that up (as long as the weather stays the same). Nice just to sit there and ... well... sit there. Today I took some music with me too, and I ended up staying there for an hour, and probably would have stayed longer if I hadn't got cold. Stupid big grey clouds! And now they've all buggered off again! It looks gorgeous out there! Helps that it's the sunset too! Purty! ;)
Maths exam is in less than a week! Ironically, the closer it gets, the more confident I feel. Well, consciously anyway. Therapist thinks that my sleep suddenly becoming so broken may be because of worries. I wouldn't be surprised if I'm worried and don't realise it. This is me afterall! ;) Apparently though, I'm going to be in the same hall as everyone else. Can't help but get a little nervous about that. Aside from just being around so many ppl for prolonged lenths of time, I like to mumble and when there are ppl around me, I can't do that (even if it isn't in english). :S ::sigh:: I'm just going to have to live with it though. Wonder what ppl'll say when they see me arriving for an exam when I haven't been at school for a year (if they even remember me, that is ;) ). ::laughs::
::throws beatroot at the screen:: ... oi oi... beatroot now, huh? I don't even like beatroot... well, I don't think I do... I don't think I've ever tried it, but anything that looks like it's soaking in purple dye isn't exactly appetising! ;)
I've got more Gunparade March! Woohoo! Only need to download 1 more episode to have the complete series! :D Although right now, that episode is going to take over 35 hours. But that's about average for BitTorrent these days. I can understand when I'm getting a batch with 5 episodes in one, but why must it mock me with just 1 episode! ::pout:: But anyway, I really am Shibamura (really need to check I'm getting the name right). Episode 9 says it all. I kicked him in the shin when he didn't say what I was expecting, stalked off, threw a few things around the room and collapsed. Easily something I'd do! ;) Gotta watch more now! >D Sayonara!
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:48 p.m.
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
I think I'm going to fall apart. My arm has been in the same place for the few hours and my neck is so tired from holding my head up for so long. And every time I move, my legs get all weak. That's what I get for spending so much time with Photoshop. Amazingly, it only crashed once, and I still managed to shut it down with the ctrl-alt-del thingy. No restarting downloads! YAY! Finished Ifetifua pic to a satisfactory amount. Was going to do some highlights on the clothing, but that's when the Compy decided to crash, so I just stuck with it. Still looks decent enough. Started another pic. Idosadi this time. The innocent one of the 'Four Fools'. I've often thought that it's probably really cruel for her to be tagging along with us, but if she didn't like it, then she'd leave (I think). Plus, Fusage hurts me every time I go overboard, so it should be safe enough. Anyway the original pic is really old. I wasn't as good with perspective, so I ended up having to completely redo everything below the waist. ::sweatdrop:: Least it doesn't look like she's a cut out any more (well, not as badly now ;) ).
Oh, great news! Well, for me anyway, most others will probably think something along the lines of 'Oh dear god, no!', but that's not the point. The next episode of Jungle wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu Deluxe has been released! SUGOI DESU!!! I'm at 46% right now, and it's not going as fast I would have liked (none of the downloads are), so I'll need to wait 'til tomorrow for it to get a chance to finish. ::sniff:: But more fabulous insanity for me to enjoy! Most definitely worth the wait! >D
On to a more serious topic. Maths tutor was round today. Gave me a surprise by coming at lunch time instead of 4pm. Was in the middle of another paper at the time (to make up for not doing much at the weekend). From what I did of that, I think I might manage ok, as far as the 'time' goes anyway. If the questions are nice to me and avoid the really difficult stuff that I get stuck at with logs and vectors, then everything will be ok. ::hopes::
Didn't go cycling today. :S It's just so windy out there! I know it's impossible to get anywhere on a bike when facing the wind. And when it's side on, I've already felt it catch the wheels. And when I don't have the best balance or much energy, it's not something I want to face. Not like I spent all day watching anime though. Finished sorting through the MP3s. Now I don't know where all the new stuff I want to listen to is. ;) But least the download folder is considerably smaller now. Makes for a better judge of where all my disk space is going. Hmmm... that reminds me, I'm going to need more CDs soon. But 100 cost £30 last time I checked, and I don't think I have that much cash. Which means I need to get more money out the bank! AHHHH!!! I want a job, but I'd die on the first day (if anyone actually hired me in the first place). I wouldn't even know what sort of job to go for, since I'm terrible with ppl. :S Makes for a wonderful outlook of the future! :'(
I think most of the day was spent doing the Photoshop stuff. Although I do remember watching 1 anime thing while I had lunch. Munto. Just a 1 off OVA thing. Pretty good for less than an hour long. Lots of elf-looking ppl. Ironically though, the guy I liked most was human. ::sweatdrop:: What happened to my 'pointy ears' fetish? I think it was just his philosophy of life that I liked most though. Beats up anyone who gets in his way, but unlike most violent men, isn't a bastard! :) Still Munto himself wasn't so bad, if only he wasn't so dull and kinda full of himself. I was just killing myself laughing at him near the end! >D ...oh yeah, should probably talk about the plot and everything else as well. ::sweatdrop:: Overall, I liked. Wish there was more to it, and I could get to know the characters better. A series set in that world would be fantastic! A land floating over the Earth that no one can see ('cept one girl). I like I like I like! :D
Might as well go. Didn't have the best sleep last night. Kept waking up since before 5am. Ironically I felt less tired by the time it came 10, but it's getting to me now. Oh, download for the Matrix Reloaded soundtrack finished! Yay! And I've got another episode of Wolf's Rain waiting for me. Toboe! Kawai!!! Cheza, the flower child thing, scares me though. It's such a neat series though! Want more! Got more! Gonna watch it then! Ryoukai! :D
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:42 p.m.
Monday, May 12, 2003
Why is it that no matter how worried I get, I never do more than what I need to? I've asked that before, I'm sure, but I wanna know! Only did one paper. Timed myself this time to make sure I was finishing in the given time. Took me an hour, with me skipping a couple of questions. Now that I have work to show my tutor, I couldn't bring myself to do any more. And the exam is in a week on Wednesday! Boy, I hope I get a room to myself like last time. Although they will probably need to actually 'vigilate' me this time instead of just leaving me alone to it. Still, I find it's somewhat easier to mumble when I'm in a small room with a couple of ppl than in a huge hall surrounding by loads of them. And mumbling is how I solve problems. Helps my mind understand what the question is by hearing it out loud. Going to need to ask the tutor what the arrangments are tomorrow. She probably won't know, but I should think she'll find out for Thursday when she should be coming next.
I did do something else worthwhile. Went a cycle ride down to the shore and sat on a bench and doodled... haven't looked at it since I got back, but the idea has been in my head for ages and ages. Just finally feel I have enough skill in the 'perspectives' area to suitably complete it. But I didn't spend as long as I wanted to there. It was getting really windy, and then the clouds came in again and I was not wanting to get caught in another hail shower again! But I'm definitely getting better on the bike. Managed to get further up the hill than before. Sure I didn't get to the top, I had to collapse onto wobbly legs and drag myself home, but the point is I got further. Least I've determination in some areas.
Also did some more work on the Ifetifua pic (hee hee! Peach! hee hee!) Slowly getting there. Just got the trousers and shoes to do, then any little points that stick out. But using the layers is definitely and easier way to do things. As long as I can be bothered doing a neat outline first, of course. But I got bored of the pic, plus I was paranoid that Compy was going to crash on me and I'd have to start some of my downloads again. Really puts you off, saving every time you want to zoom or scroll since that's always where Compy gets confused and dies. :S
That stuff did take up most of the day, plus I spent a while making CDs and moving MP3s from the downloads folder. Ended up losing an hour with the MP3s. Got too many, and most of them aren't named something that I can recognise without checking their info in Winamp. :S Not that that stops me getting more or makes me organises in a different way. ;)
I've also been watching some more anime in the breaks between things. Some more Escaflowne. Caught up to where I have complete files. Annoyingly, the rest of the episodes I have, I was getting in a batch BitTorrent thing, and I didn't have time to complete them before they were removed. Annoying! It's a pretty neat series, and it helps when I can actually watch episodes soon after one another. Probably should have watched it when it was on TV. But it's so much easier when I can fit it around my own schedule, instead of having to go by the TV's.
Speaking of TV, I noticed something I can't wait for! A Matrix night! WOOHOO! The problem is, I only remember it said 'coming soon' and I can't remember what channel I was watching. :S It may have been channel 5, cos I'm sure I was in the living room at the time, and that's the only channel I was watching there. Must find out, must find out. With any luck, it'll play the advert again tomorrow and I'll catch it. And this time I'll remember the details! ::she hopes::
Back to the anime. I watched a couple eps of Narue no Sekai, one of the new animes. A little cutesy in the design, but it has an interesting idea that I don't think anyone else has every used. The Earth gets hit by a supernova explosion! Makes a change from the usual asteroids that are out to kill us! ;) So I'm definitely going to be looking out for more on this one! Eh heh, can't help it! I like astronomy stuff! ;)
I've been noticing lately, as I get more anime, I'm finding it a whole load easier to put myself into the characters (damn Saku for giving me the habit!). It always was so difficult to find characters for me, mainly cos I'm just so unique. But in anime, there does tend to be characters that are a little anti-social, quiet unless provoked, and generally a loner, never telling anyone what goes on in her mind. Sure, when it comes to me, I'm all that, plus the hyper insane part, but it can't be perfect! Lately I've been associating myself with Shibamura from Gunparade March. Really is me! Watches a guy fall down the stairs then just walks off! ;) I really want more of the series! I've downloaded the last episode cos it was on a site, but I refuse to watch anything out of order if I can help it. But getting the in-between episodes is taking an annoyingly long time! I'm on 82% for episode 9, and have been for most of the day.
Of course, it doesn't help that my dad is disconnecting me every so often again. ::sigh:: I just can't explain to him the neccesity of having the anime! If only he could understand that it's the same thing as getting Red Dwarf or Lord of the Rings.
::has a heart attack, and does a little dance:: Gunparade March MOVES! It's gonna finish in 15 min, if it keeps going, and it had better. Although knowing it, it'll probably taunt me and stop at 99%. Well, I gotta wait for this episode to finish! Can't bear to go to bed without watching that! I mean, it's me! ;) Plus Hayama... Hayami... damn, forgot his name. Whoever he is, is cool... well, actually he's more in the 'dumb, cute' range, but I like that too! ;)
Hmmm... now what to do. 2 downloads are gonna finish, one of which I've never heard of. Munto? Seems just a random thing done by Saikou Fansubs and for some reason I decided to download it instead of getting more of the series I'm after... can't remember why. I know I read a review or something of it, so I'm assuming whatever it was was good, cos I can't remember. ::sweatdrop:: Anyway, 12 min or so for both... what to do... what to do... ::relaxes and listens to the Gunparade March soundtrack for a bit::
::checks downloads again and begins to cry:: Noo... noooo... no... So mean to me! Gunparade March stopped! GYYAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! ... oh, wait wait wait... oh, 1 kb/s. Fantastic. And here was me thinking it was going to be going at 30 until it finished, but that would be too good now, wouldn't it? ... no no no, 0. Never mind! Forget it! I'm leaving and I'll just have to make do with Wolf's Rain. Haven't watched any of that in ages. And I used to never get enough of it. Oh well, I guess it ain't so bad. ::goes to drool over the bishounen/wolves and paw at the screen like usual:: Mata ne!
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:57 p.m.
Sunday, May 11, 2003
I was supposed to do maths today... so much for that! Damn laziness! Well, that and the fact that past papers are always daunting, whether it's going to be properly graded or not! :S Just means that tomorrow I'm going to have to work my ass off to make up for not doing anything since Thursday when the tutor was here! CRAP!
But I did do something good today! Long cycle ride (well, long for me), with Saku. Now my legs are all rubbery and climbing stairs is a real hassle. Really need to learn how much energy I need to make it home cos that's always were all my energy goes. Sucks living on top of a hill! :S Still, since I never went anywhere much yesterday, I have to make up for that.
What I have been doing today, is, unsurprisingly, watch anime. Was watching Yami no Matsuei since I'd got more episodes off of Streamload to finish up my download limit. Really cool! Tsuzuki (if I'm remembering the name right [watched 9 episodes and I'm still having difficulty :S ]) reminds me of me sometimes (did get him in a test once). The way he can switch from serious contemplation to idiotic ... well... idiocy, so sugoi! ;) Plus when he goes all cute and gets dog ears, paws and a tail, I just wanna glomp 'im. So kawaii! ;) Only 1 more story arc to go, it seems. ::sigh:: I think I'll start looking into getting the manga of this one. I have one chapter, I think. Started differently from the anime which really confused me. But still cool. I mean, it's Shinigamis, come on! ;)
DN Angel ep 5 is a rip off! No Dark! No fair! And Hiwatari-kun (I think I got the name right) has buggered off which meant the episode was a complete waste of time! ::growls:: The most spectacular thing that happened was Wiz/With (whichever translation you wanna use) suddenly transformed into Niwa-kun. That thing reminds me of a cabbit, only it's tail looks more like a third ear. :S It also reminds me of Pan, in it's oblivious cute idiotic -ness, you just wanna strangle it... eh hem... I don't think I'm safe around super cute things. :S
Moving on: I want music! The soundtrack to Licensed by Royal sounds fantastic. Mainly english sung songs, but then the anime is supposedly set in Britain. I guess it does resemble James Bond style stuff with all the gadgets and what-have-you. And Jack is cool! ;) Even although the rest of the anime confuses me with conspiracy and the sort of thing that bewilders me (doesn't take much for that to happen though ;) ). But the music is fantastic! And I can't find it anywhere, bar the opening and ending. ::pout::
I'm also wanting Figure 17 music! That anime was great, and the opening and ending were catchy, but I can't find it anywhere! ::cries:: Then there is the Raimuiro Senkitan ending. Every time I watched an episode of that, the ending would be stuck in my head for ages. But it's nowhere to be found! I don't understand why no one has this stuff! I would have thought they would have been really popular. But no one even seems to talk about the animes that much where I visit. :'(
Ah, nearly forgot to mention I did do something else worthwhile noting today! Art! Well, photoshop stuff. I'm trying out a new method for colouring. Once the outline is sorted (since I never bother to ink before I scan in cos I always end up editing it on screen anyway), it's pretty easy to sort. Just uses several layers. No more having to worry about mucking up the colour next to it. No more painstakingly going around the lines to make sure I don't screw it all up. WOOHOO! However, the picture looks quite scary when you delete the eyes (I changed the 'transparent' look from grey boxes to pinky-red boxes so I didn't get confused what I was deleting). Ifetifua looked like a vampire! ...A happy vampire... A skipping vampire... ::laughs:: But it was still freaky! I'm the one that's supposed to freak him out! He dares to stalk MY Fusage-kun! I did a picture with him once and decided on skin and hair colour then. But now I've altered my screen's brightness, and it looks so pale (didn't help with the whole 'vampire' thing either!). So he ended up looking peachy! I've decided that's my new insult for him. I can see it now!
Yiefi: ::points teasingly at Ifetifua:: Peach!
Ifetifua: What?
Yiefi: Peach! ::grins evilly::
Ifetifua: What are you talking about?
Yiefi: Peach! ::laughs::
Ifetifua: If you are trying to insult me somehow, it's not going to work, cos I don't know what you mean! ::sticks out tongue::
Yiefi: Peach!
Ifetifua ignores...
Yiefi: Peach!
Ifetifua glares
Yiefi: Peach!
Ifetifua: Stop that!
Yiefi: Peach!
Ifetifua: Fusage!
Yiefi: Peach!
Ifetifua: Fusage! Make her stop!
Yiefi: Peach!
Ifetifua: Fusage! FUSAGE! She's being mean to me! She keeps calling me a peach!
... stupidified silence...
Yiefi: Peach!
Ifetifua clenches fists and grumbles something inaudible
Yiefi: Peach!
Ifetifua's fists shake and sniffs
Yiefi: Peach!
Ifetifua bursts into tears and runs off. Echoes of 'peach!' follow him through hysterical laughter.
Of course, then I get wacked over the back of the head by Fusage cos then he has to go comfort him. But it's worth it! ... Hmmm... maybe I'm a little too mean to him... but then he don't like me either, so the feeling's mutual! ;)
Anyway, I'm still after a good night's sleep, so I'm going to shut up and watch one more episode of ... something ... and go to bed! Ja ne!
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:57 p.m.
Saturday, May 10, 2003
I think I'm slowly going blind as my eyes fall asleep before the rest of me. :S Had a late night last night. Went round to Saku's. She was going out to this Vegas Nights thingy, but since I'm feeling kinda dead when I didn't go, I'm pretty glad I refrained from going with her. Didn't get into bed 'til 'bout 1. And then there's the time that I lie there and the mind rambles and comes up with ideas and little plays and whatever while I just want it to shut up and leave me alone. No matter how tired I am, it always manages to keep going. Evil thing! Taunts me when I'm dead!
Been tring to do it since Thursday, but today was finally the day of triumph! Uploaded Chobits ep 9 on my site! Yatta of 'yatta's! ;) Go get it if you're interested! ;)
Other than that, today has pretty much been a relaxing day. Went a walk with the dog, but couldn't face the cycle ride. It just takes so much energy out of me in such a short period of time, leaving me dead, and I'm already not exactly alive. :S
You know, my head hurts, and I'm sleepy and can't stop yawning and I want my bed. But I better get some supper first. Ah, early night! Here I come! (been wanting one of these for a while ;) ) Oyasumi! :P
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:04 p.m.
Thursday, May 8, 2003
I was going to add an entry yesterday. I had archived the last lot, and was typing away, coming to the end, and Compy decides to tell me Explorer performed an illegal operation. I nearly managed to save everything, but no matter how many times I clicked 'close', it just kept coming back up again, until Compy got all confused and just hung. So I lost 1 big entry full of some great stuff, about me, my future, my attitudes, etc, not to mention I had to start downloads from the beginning again. So I spent most of the next hour growling around the house, asking 'Why? Why? Why?' to the walls, doors and the dog. (My mum had left me alone last night when she went to a classical concert. I might have gone too if I hadn't felt I needed to do maths). Needless to say, I am not going to try and type it all out again (although some of it may repeat here, but that's not intentional, it's the just the mind rambling about the same stuff [happens all the time in my mind])
Less than 2 weeks 'til Maths exam! It's not supposed to be so soon! It's supposed to stay 'months away' until I want to do it. I'm not ready! For once in my life, I actually want to spend hours and hours on past papers (I always used to hate those at school. Saw them as a waste of time. I just thought, might as well just go straight on to the real exam. But then again, before I was overly confident of my abilities. Those who know me will not agree, but I was a hell of a lot more confident than I am now! Even if I didn't know it, I was extremely confident unconciously, or I would have actually done work at home before it came to the week before the exam. Annoyingly I still did well in my Standard Grades. I'm disturbingly good at cramming. It's my tactic to passing any test, but it ain't gonna get me far! :S )
I know, particularly after the prelim I sat in February (was it really that long ago?), that everyone thinks I'm going to do fantastically. Certainly the tutor keeps telling me I'm going to get an A if I just do what I've always been doing. But somehow, even after seeing the results from the prelim, I still feel like I didn't do well. I mean, 90-odd percent... it's great... but... somehow it doesn't feel like I did that. It feels more like someone gave me that grade because that's what I should have gotten if I was still at school. I wouldn't have been at all surprised if someone turned to me and said 'it wasn't 90, it was 70. There was a mark on the paper'... ::suddenly thinks of something:: I don't even know what the cut-off marks are for the grades. ::grimaces:: Really shouldn't make a difference, but I wanna know just for good measure to make sure I don't screw up somehow...
Then again, after saying all that, if I don't get an A, I'm going to feel like all the work's been for nothing... what work I've bothered to do, that is. I have been doing more than usual, but just picking up the pencil is doing more than usual so it doesn't mean a thing. I should be doing more than I am. But I'm such a lazy coward. Don't wanna pick up the work because I keep hitting this wall where I can't do any more. I keep using the excuse that the psychiatrist told me I'm not supposed to push myself that much, but I know I'm just using it to take the easy way out. Same with reading. Haven't read any more of the book for several days, and before that, it was at least several weeks. I keep saying, I'll start reading some daily, but I look at it, think 'I can't face that right now' and do something else that will make me feel happy for a while.
Gyah! I sound so pathetic! Complaining instead of doing something about it. But like always, I can't face it, so this is the easy way out. I really need more self-dicipline. Although I am impressed that I am refraining from playing Freecell, Solitaire and Minesweeper as much. Only turn to that if I'm having a conversation or am waiting for something that will only take a few minutes. Also I haven't touched Grand Theft Auto for a few days now. That's good. Means I've actually been doing something maybe slightly constructive (least even anime helps me learn Japanese ;) ). Managed to sleep in for maybe an extra hour at most today, but that's enough. The alarm goes back on tonight, and I keep that up for at least another week. No backing out, no going back to sleep! And finally today, I went out for a short bike ride. Very short, no more than 15 minutes, but it's the beginning of what I hope to become a daily thing, just like taking the dog out is right now. Then I can start increasing on that too. I've been meaning to do that since I went to the occupational therapist and she gave me the idea. Really quite an acumplishment. Probably helped that it's sunny today, so I was feeling more in an 'out-going' mood.
I was feeling in a pretty good mood for most of the day today. I blame one of the Kodomo no Omocha songs I downloaded! But I'm running low on energy now. If only I didn't have to update the Chobits episode today. Spent hours waiting for that to do stuff. First time I encoded it, it was too big. Then the uploading was being evil, so I'm having to use Internet Explorer, and it doesn't tell me nearly as much. Right now I don't know if it's doing anything. It's been saying '41 minutes remaining' for 5 or more minutes now. I am not going to try again tonight. If it doesn't work, it doesn't work, and everyone can wait 'til tomorrow. I do not need another hassle to keep my mind worrying. I wish the maths thing was the only thing bugging me, but it has larger implications... and there are other things in my mind too that bother me.
Well, from all that, I'm going to take a wild guess and say that the 'nice, friendly, well-rounded, sane 'me', Calenmaia' has stopped being in control. She was there for most of the day (probably the only reason I did do that cycle ride). Then I think Xilmin came back for a bit, since I was admiring my own hyper evil cackle as I was reading Megatokyo while waiting for the upload. But now... I need a boost. Time for some chirpy anime with supper before bed. Sayonara!
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:47 p.m.
