Wednesday, September 17, 2003
::tries to remember how to breathe:: Oh! Ah! Ee! That was good! ::cough:: Well, I'm back to my yaoi obsession again. Three Wolves Mountain is great! I want a wolf-boy! The purty multi-coloured eyes! The fuzzy dog ears! The big fluffy bushy tail! "wave. wave. grab. splurt!" ::squeak:: Need more! But the only way to get the next chapters is with a program I can't use cos of my dad's work on the network. I think I'm going to need to go beg the ppl to upload it to Streamload or something. Must get more! Must! I was reading a couple of other mangas, but they were nothing compared to that one! >)
::sigh:: Need to calm myself down now. I'm all flustered! ::giggles:: ... ::whacks head off desk:: Okay, I'm better now!
Hmmm... what else have I done today? I don't know! I've forgotten! :S I was going to look at learning Katakana today since I think I've got a good enough grasp on Hiragana, only the site ran out of bandwidth or something. I did watch one episode of Scryed at lunch time. I started clearing out my Yahoo mail box a bit (but didn't get very far ;) ). I walked the dog and attacked a couple more bushes. Oh yeah, and a lot of time was spent trying to get the download program to work so I could get more of the mangas, but upon mentioning IdentD to my dad, he told me there was no way he was going to allow that. To dangerous! ::cries:: I want more yaoi, damn it! Yup, definitely gonna need to beg the scanlators! :S
I got the Yami no Matsuei soundtracks like I said I would. I am missing a couple of tracks cos of Streamload saying they are 'temporarily unavailable'. In other words, 'you ain't gettin' 'em so don't try'. So evil! :'( Hopefully I'll be able to find someone with them somewhere. It's really good though! I particularly like Hisoka's theme or whatever it's actually called. Beautiful! :D
Since I've been so very 'distracted' today, I don't actually have anything else to say. I think I'll go get more random yaoi mangas from somewhere I know will always have actual HTTP downloads. Ah yes, I remember a site that had downloads that I was still to check out. There is the Zetsuai manga that I'm interested in checking out. But there are some others that might be interesting looking at. Lumen Lunae is about demons. But West End is apparently very graphic! ::sweatdrop:: Ah, what sort of mood am I in? ... ah, I pick West End. Why not, ne? Eh heh!
Well, I'm off. I really shouldn't be reading that sort of thing this late at night. I'm never gonna get to sleep! But it's just... I can't resist! :P Mata ne! >)
Xilmin visited the elves at 08:49 p.m.
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
WEEEEEEEEE!!! Xi is back and in control! Hyper, happy and I'm me again! Complete with new-found loathing for all the other little 'me's who keep getting in my way! But I can't be grumpy 'bout it! I'm back! It should be celebrated... or maybe it should be 'feared'. Well, I'll celebrate it by spreading fear into the rest of society. :P
I know a great song to sing for this!
I am the one and only!
Oh yeah! :P
Call me
Call me by my name, oh
Call me by my number
Put me through
I'll still be doing it the way I do it
And yet you try to make me forget who I really am
Don't tell me I know best
I'm not the same as all the rest
I am the one and only
Nobody I'd rather be
I am the one and only
You can't take that away from me!
What? I couldn't resist! :P Ah, this song brings back memories. I didn't even have tapes in stereo! :S I still have my fav tape with this song on it. Sucks it only works in one speaker with today's technology. Ok, most of the 'songs' are just me recording through a microphone from the TV, so there's nothing all that great on it. In fact, most of it probably sucks. I have the theme to Xena on it, for God's sake. But I can't hate that show really. I used to really like it. It's set in ancient Greece! I can't help it! ;)
I should get to the point of blogging. Ah, but this feels so good, rambling what's in my mind. There hasn't been anything in there for 2 days! I was so lonely without all the little voices in there. Aoiko disturbed most of them and they were avoiding the sobbing mess, and Akuma just plain scared the rest off. Then those two went to sleep or something, cos they weren't there most of the time either. :S Oi oi! I really am insane, ain't I? Ah, well, I'm proud to be different and unique! :D
Blogging! Blogging! Blogging! Let's see... well, I was at the college today. When I woke up, I was still out of it, but I became aware of things gradually through the day. Chemistry is a blur, particularly at the beginning. I believe I was watching a big spider on the wall for the first 2 hours. It wasn't even moving. ::sweatdrop:: But I started coming alive during lunch with my battle against the pie. It's no wonder I was sitting alone at the table. Any normal person would stay as far away from the person growling at her food and gibbering idiocies. ;)
I also made a new friend today, and it was male! Shock beyond all shocks, ne? ;) Me? Socialising? Very weird thing to do. ;) But he amused me. Talking about dots on the ceiling? Well, it was a riviting conversation considering I was in Physics at the time. ;) He even amused me when he wasn't even there. I was killing myself when it dawned on me what he said his name was. Andrew! ::laughs her head off:: In the world that is my head, that means he is a decendant of the Highland Elves, my wonderful allies against the evil Hoomans ('humans' for you simple ppl :P )! ... I should probably stop talking now...
How can I? I never did blog about Cat's little get-together before she goes to Uni. While that was a couple of days ago now, so the memory is blurred, I do remember one thing: flames! FIRE! BURNING! Luckily I'm really dumb or I wouldn't have been stupid enough to lift the burning piece of paper off the table-cloth. At the expense of a minor burn on my finger, I was not killed by Cat. :P The burn's already healed now anyway. I didn't even notice until 5 minutes afterwards. Sitting there, thinking something's not right. Then it dawns on me: "My finger hurts"... mind starts working hard until it finally hits me and I think "Oh right! Oh yeah, flame causes pain!" ::sweatdrop:: But other than Funk and Saku attempting to do some sort of morris dancing and various ppl's attempts to play the piano, the rest is pretty much gone. Ah well, that's better memory than usual. ;)
Hmmm... anything else to ramble on? Oh yes! I found a really cool thingy to play with today on Shockwave.com. I decided to play random games there since while I was kinda hyper, I didn't want my energy being zapped immediately and find myself just like I was yesterday. And so I discovered a game called Bounce Symphony (or something like that). It was so cool! Well, the actual idea behind the game wasn't anything overly original. However nothing has ever attempted making it feel real. It was just like real bouncy rubber balls. It was so cute (don't ask why I came to that conclusion! I don't understand my mind! :P )! Just randomly flinging them round and watching them bounce and move the others, thinking "It could be real!" The actual game was pretty dull and I got bored after a while, but the... 'realness'... so cool! :)
Surely I'm done for now... yeah right! Since when could I leave as soon as I finished what I had to talk about? ;) ...Oh oh oh! I adore this song! I've been meaning to download it every time I heard it, but I always forgot. I finally remembered it! Yay!
I wanna love you but I better not touch
Don't touch
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you but I want it too much
Too much
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison
I don't wanna break these chains
Poison
Ok that has to be the 6th time I've listened to that in the last 2 hours. Better stop it now. Heh heh. ::sweatdrop:: Back to the anime music! >) I guess I should really be on my way now before I fill this up with more guff and lyrics. ;) I'll go scoot off and... wait a minute... ::happy little squeak:: Oh oh oh! I can get the Yami no Matsuei OSTs! The site's bandwidth renewed! :D I'll be downloading that now! Eeeee!!! :D Even more amazing: My DN Angel episode download is moving! It's at 20%! In only 2 days! That's unprecedented these days! Ah, today is a good day! :D Well, I'm gonna be kept busy making sure I get all the tracks, so I'll go. Ja! :)
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:36 p.m.
Monday, September 15, 2003
I'm still not feeling right. Wish I knew why. Dreams weren't much help in figuring it out either. They weren't much different than normal. I was joining a band as the drummer, only instead of drums, I had a broken metal table. I know there was more, but it's gone already.
Today I haven't done much. I did walk the dog, but that did nothing to help me. Watched some anime which distracted myself from me and I enjoyed myself for a bit. Particularly with DN Angel. The episode finally finished downloading! Looks like it's going to be really amusing in the next few episodes. :D Also watched the first episode of the Read or Die series. While the characters aren't the same, there are still those that control paper, which is amazingly appealing to me! :)
Found an interesting online series called Ninjai: The Little Ninja on AtomFilms. While it was rather slow and predictable to begin with (skilled kid beats the crap outta anyone that gets in his way), the music and the beautiful backgrounds, kept me watching. It's set in ancient Japan, and it's grown on me. Heh. If only it didn't take so long to load.
But other than that, I haven't the faintest idea where the day went. Apparently an Astronomical Society met up this evening, but there was no way I could bring myself to go. I feel so crap and lost and confused. Mostly lost. :S College tomorrow. Early morning. If I'm not better after more sleep, I'm going to be hopeless tomorrow! :S
My head's pain has increased yet again, so I'm off to watch more of the Ninjai thingy.
Xilmin visited the elves at 08:53 p.m.
Sunday, September 14, 2003
Where am I? I don't know. The mind's left without me, and it ain't gone anywhere pleasant, cos I keep getting 'feelings'. Akuma and Aoiko stuff. :( Not good. They never make me feel good! Tried to keep myself ok by being with Li-chan and Pan, but it wasn't as successful as I would have hoped. Still, it beat just going home! Wish I knew what brought it on, but I haven't a clue. Never know what's going on with my mind. I know it ain't right, and probably nobody believes that seriously. All I know is I'm confused and lost. :(
... damn it! Aoiko's here! Not blubberiness! Why blubberiness? I'm listening to hyper anime music, for god's sake! :S I guess I'll just need to let it run it's course. ::sigh:: I'm off to curl up in bed with a stuffed rabbit and see if I can find my mind and send it to the good places where ideas come from.
Xilmin visited the elves at 10:42 p.m.
Saturday, September 13, 2003
Going to Cat's later. :) So I'm here early... only I don't have much to say. My mind won't make up it's mind whether it's hyper or sleepy. So I just ended up on the couch watching Scryed. My parents are out... wandering... somewhere... with the dog, so I'm taking advantage of the DVD player and a comfy seat. ;) I've watched... ::tries to work it out:: ... over 10 episodes anyway. I really really like the series! Just don't ask me what it's about. There are these ppl with strange fighting abilities, and this big bad company and so battles break out, blah blah blah and then stuff happens and I get confused. ;) But there's bishounen and cool seiyuu! What more do I need? ;)
I actually managed to cook my own meal successfully! Certainly, I'm not ill yet, and the chicken looked like it was cooked right through. The chips were a little 'crispier' than I would have liked, but with enough ketchup, I barely noticed! ;) But when I was looking in the freezer for the food, I found something that's bewildered me. It looks like someone put ketchup in the ice-cube tray. Now, I'm sure it wasn't me! At least, I don't remember doing it! But who else in my family would have? My brother maybe, but he hasn't been here for... ::gets stuck:: a while... I think... actually, I can't be sure. I don't pay that much attention when he's around. ;) But I don't think he did. And my parents, my mum's too sane, and my dad's too busy. Which just leaves me... Oi oi! Looks like I've been sleep-'ketchuping'. ::sweatdrop:: If that's the case, makes me worry about what else I do in my sleep. ::looks about nervously, trying to look as innocent as possible::
Well, that was my day. Not much to it, eh? Well, I'll need to cycle to Cat's, so I thought I'd save my energy for then. ;) Yay! A clan gathering! It's been a while! :) ::sniff sniff:: Then Cat's gonna leave! :'( ...Now I'm really desperate to get going. ::figit:: I'll finish up here and get ready then. Can't hurt if I'm a little early. :) Ja!
Xilmin visited the elves at 06:40 p.m.
Friday, September 12, 2003
Die! Die, bug, die! ... umm... am I a little sadistic? Just captured another bug for the bug-box. Yet another bug to die in my room. Well, it's their own fault for coming in here! The fool! Die! Die! ... ::cough cough:: Umm... anyway! ;)
Had a 'guidance' class at college today. I'm so glad it's in the afternoon! For something as worthless as 'guidance', I'd better get a sleep-in! ;) Still, Saku and the same girl I talk to in both of my other classes are there, so it's fun. ;) And I don't need to go in every week anyway. Yay! Today was just filling in a couple of things, then we were let out, so it was hardly exhausting. Was on my bike again, and I made it all the way up the hills again! Woohoo! I'm getting there! Just gotta keep this up! :D Ok, I died when I got to the top, but I'm too stubborn when I've already got part way up. Even when I can't breathe, I still keep peddling. ::sweatdrop:: I'm dumb like that. Gonna kill myself one of these days. :S
Watched the last episodes of Now and Then Here and There this afternoon. Really sad! Not sad enough to make me cry, but it was close at one point. ;) It would have been a great series, if only the main character had a brain! He never thinks of his friends or family while he's away in this strange foreign land where he's getting the crap beaten out of him. Now is that strange, or is that just me? And yet after it all, he's still determined to go home. What for? Oi oi! It bugs me! Still, when I manage to forget that, it's a good series. Depressing, but good.
And the rest of the day was spent... ::drum roll:: ... playing Mahjong! ... yeah, oh so exciting, ne? :S Well, it's addictive! :P Plus it gives me something to do when I'm relaxing listening to my music. Got it on random. For over 3500 mp3s, I'm amazed how it likes picking the same stuff to play. :S But I was overjoyed when it played a track from the Fruits Basket Drama CD. Ah, Ayame! ::happy sigh:: Ended up playing that one over and over and over again. ::sweatdrop:: What? I like it! It's amusing! Plus: the voice! :P
Actually, I can't think of anything else I've done today. Hmmm... oh well... I guess that's all I have to say... but it just doesn't feel right not to have rambled nonsical sense here! ... but I can't think of anything! Always happens when I actually try! :S I guess I'll just leave then. I'm supposed to copy a CD for a my mum anyway. ::sigh:: Using my blank CD! >( That's supposed to be for my precious anime! ;) Ah, it's near enough supper time anyway, so once I'm done with that, I can go watch some anime for the rest of the night. Well, sayonara! :)
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:13 p.m.
