Friday, May 23, 2003
Phew! Did plenty of work on Anime Shelter. Sort of making up for the big absense while I've been studying. I am not going through everything I did (already done that twice). Just go there and read the update if you are interested! :P
But then once I move away from that topic, there ain't much else to say. Didn't go on the bike today. It was chucking it down out there, so I just took the dog for a longer walk instead. Then after exhausting my legs and soaking myself, the sun comes out and I'm too tired to go out in it. ::sniff:: Typical! Maybe I should have listened to the dog on one of the several times I wanted to take the shorter route. ::laughs:: But he looks so pathetic soaking wet and generally doing his I'm-cute-but-still-old act. It's fun dragging him further, listening to my stereo, mumbling to myself, and carrying my stick over my shoulder. :)
I think my mind was coming up with yet another new 'me' last night. All cos of the Matrix! ::sigh:: I don't want another one! I still haven't drawn and named all of the current ones yet! :S This one is male (I think. With a mind like mine, it's a little difficult to tell sometimes). That's only the 3rd male me so far. But then most 'me's pop up when they're drooling over bishounen, and the Matrix is bishounen-less. ;) He wears what I think of as 'anti-agent' style suit, aka, white. Really annoys me that everyone wears black leather! Least in the original movie, there was Switch, but she didn't have a character worth talking about, so I don't know if she even counts for much. I really want a white suit now! I think it would look so cool! Naturally with the sunglasses too, wearing them even in the middle of the night. ;) Sweet!
Oh, one other thing I did today: I read manga. Really creepy manga from the creator of Kodomo no Omocha. In fact, it 'kind of' involves the characters. It's called Mizu no Yakata (Palace of Water). It's a movie that Sana from Kodocha filmed. Only this manga was just the story alone (although in the outtakes, it made references to the actual original characters. They were funny! >) ). But anyway, the plot was so freaky! Ghost story style. But the ending was just... freaky... :S ... ::nearly spews her juice as she remembers Hayama's reaction to watching it:: Now that was hilarious! Damn, I want more Kodomo no Omocha! Hayama is so cool. Sure, he's a bastard, but an amusing, pathetic one, so it's great! ;)
Oh oh oh! I have more Full Metal Panic! Well, I'm off! Yay! ::dashes off to drool over bishounen & seiyuu:: >D
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:51 p.m.
Thursday, May 22, 2003
These raisons taste funny... They're Madeiran raisons. Been in my room for... ::checks:: over a month... Hmmm... maybe that's why they taste odd. They weren't even made from seedless grapes either. ::swallows yet another seed:: What? You expect me to spit them out? Bah! I'm growing an orchard in my stomach, so why would I want to do that? Let's see, that's grapes, apples, melons... I need more than that! Should eat more seeded oranges! :)
I'm rambling (naturally). Anyway, today was the Matrix day I wanted. Matrix Reloaded is fan-TAS-TIK! ;) I wanna watch it again and again and again! Can't wait to see it on the big screen. Gonna get my parents to take me this weekend. They're all for getting me out the house afterall, so it shouldn't be too hard an argument. It's when I try the same thing next week (like I'm bound to), that I'm not so sure it's going to work. ;) I'm just annoyed that there weren't any conclusions! I guess I just have to wait for the 3rd movie. ::sniff:: The 1st didn't leave me hanging like that! :'( And it'll no doubt take at least another year before Revolations, or whatever the 3rd one is called, comes out.
But back to Reloaded! Fan-TAS-TIK! ;) Link was funny! Smith had many 'me's! And the Twins were so cool! Hope they come back at some point! They can't just leave like that! Not to mention graphic-wise: wow! :) And I kept seeing what appeared to me to be anime influence. Certainly the entry into Zion looked similar to something I've seen in an anime, I'm sure (or I'm being paranoid like usual). Gotta see it again! Just gotta! :D ::glances at VCD next to her:: Must resist... must resist... :S
Final Flight of the Osiris was cool too, just not long enough! Must get the Animatrix DVD at some point... But that involves spending money. But this is the Animatrix... But I don't wanna take more money out the bank! Ah, mou!
::distracts her mind with Morning Musume:: Ai ai ah! Ai ai ah! Hee hee! Funny music! :D
Anyway, I didn't spend the whole day with the matrix. Went down to the beach for a bit. The only problem was it was bloody windy out there! Tried to go along the promenade to my fav spot, but I gave up and just made do with where I'd got to. Sure, going the other way ruled. I'm think I'm addicted to speed. Passed one person and all I could see in front of me was open path. So I think I overdid it a little. Kept going until it wasn't physically possible from my legs to peddle any faster. ;) If only there was a huge hill I could go down that I didn't need to use brakes on (stupid hill outside my house has to have a busy road at the bottom! ::pout::). But now my legs are tired so I rest them on compy (even if I am finding it kinda warm ;) ).
I did do some webpage work today, just nothing actually updated. Encoded more Jubei-chan! Such a great anime! Ended up watching most of it myself (ok, I skipped most of the bits that didn't have Koinosuke in them, but he's the best part!). I've also written up a very basic tutorial for putting freeloader avi files back into 1 piece. Been meaning to do that for a while. Tomorrow I'll get to work on some other stuff. Links, DC hubs, as well as the obvious streamload lists. Don't know how much I'll actually get done, but I'll just need to see.
It's later than intended yet again (damn Jubei-chan distracted me... well, it wasn't Jubei exactly... but... umm... never mind! :P ), so I'll be off. Get to choose what I want to watch today. Same choices as yesterday plus Gundam Seed and Naruto. If I remember correctly though, the Wolf's Rain ep is a flashback ep. Bah, I'll watch something else. Hmmm... Naruto or E's Otherwise... Kakashi-sensei ain't in the plot right now in Naruto, so that just leaves E's Otherwise! ::sweatdrop:: I really am developing a one-track mind! ;) Ah, it ain't so bad from my point of view. Keeps crappy 'me's that bother me about stuff at bay if I have someone to drool over! ;) Now onwards, to Yuuki! Yay! Matsumoto Yasunori rules! :D See ya! ::scampers off eagerly::
Xilmin visited the elves at 10:17 p.m.
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
Exam is finally over! WOOHOO WOOHOO WOOHOO YATTA YATTA YATTA BANZAI BANZAI BANZAI SUGOI DESU! I'm happy! I'm finished! I'm free! FREE! I can actually spend time on something else! Will start doing work tomorrow... well... maybe... You see, someone at my mum's work gave her a pirated copy of Matrix Reloaded, and I have to watch it tomorrow. Plus, there's gonna be that Matrix night I mentioned tonight. Actually, the original Matrix movie as already started, but I've got it on video anyway and I saw it recently. What I really can't wait for is the part of the Animatrix that's going to be shown. Since apparently Dreamcatcher, the movie it was being shown with, sucked, my dad was put off with it and didn't take me (said he didn't want to ruin how good the book was). But I get to see it on TV anyway! Yay! I'm getting the DVD at some point anyway, but that doesn't mean I'm going to miss out on an oppertunity to see it free! Just the same with the Reloaded movie! It's there, it may not be the best quality (in fact, it did look kinda crap to start with. Before the person who was videoing it zoomed in, you could see the glowing exit sign in the corner. But that just amused me), but it's still the Matrix movie and I'm going to see it in good quality at some point anyway, but I just can't wait that long! :P So in other words, tomorrow may end up a Matrix day for me. Not so bad really. But after that, I swear I'll get back on to webpage work. I want to, so there's no reason to avoid it. :)
As to how the exam went, I think I did ok. It wasn't nearly as tough as I thought it was going to be. There was nothing from the previous years. There was no really complicated vector or log problems that I was worrying about until the very last question, and I stumbled across the answer without even realising it after 15 min of testing out various methods. In the end I didn't need to extra time I was given. With a calculator and easily understood questions, I don't need to worry too much about time. And to make things even better, I ended up not being in the hall with everyone else. I was put in the home economics department, so there was only the invigilator (or whatever the term is) around. That helped concentration considerably! I went to see my tutor afterwards, and she mentioned a couple of questions I might have had trouble with, and from what she said, I think I got them right, so things are definitely looking good! I left with a much better feeling that at prelim time. Least I have a feeling of how I did this time! :)
After the exam, I thought it was time to go relax a bit before going home, so went straight to the beach. Not my usual spot. I felt in my legs that they wouldn't make it that far, not with the wind blowing against me. Still, it was nice and peaceful, barely anyone around other than a few ppl walking their dogs. Managed to stop my mind thinking for a while (always a good thing!). :)
Didn't do much else today. Thought I'd give myself a wasted day as a present for (hopefully) doing well in the exam. So I played various online games (namely Joust! Such a cool game, but it's no where near as fun when I'm alone) and read DC chat about which scandinavians made the best vikings. ;)
Oh yeah, and one other thing: I discovered a new yaoi comedy. Certainly I found it hilarious cos it was Inoue Kazuhiko (Yuki - Gravitation, Kakashi-sensei - Naruto) and Matsumoto Yasunori (Hiro - Gravitation, Gourry - Slayers, Yuuki - E's Otherwise). Always adds an amusing side to any anime, comparing seiyuu roles. Still, the anime alone was still pretty funny. I just wish it wasn't so short. There should be more, I think, but I can't be sure. Plus, I've never come across this one before, and it was hard enough discovering the actual seiyuu names (I could have just waited 'til the credits at the end though cos the names ended up being in romanji anyway ;) ). Oh yeah, the name: Seikimatsu Darling. Even just that cracks me up. It's the 'darling' though. Anyone who uses 'darling' kills me laughter. ;) But the plot to it, I think they were basically competing to see who gets to be seme! ::laughs:: Not quite as 'romantic' as they put it, but still, it all comes down to the same thing. ;)
I might as well go, decide on an anime to watch for the night. I did get up 2 hours earlier than usual, but once I got past the initial walking blinding, doing everything automatically, I haven't actually felt too bad for it. Not that I'm going to be doing that again any time soon. Didn't have time to sleep lightly to have any dreams. And my dreams of late have been pretty cool (ignoring the part that I wish I didn't remember and loathe my mind for), 'specially that Ghost in the Shell one. That ruled, but it was the Major, and she rules, so naturally... but I've talked about this before and I was trying to leave. Just got to decide on what anime to watch. Wolf's Rain, E's Otherwise, Tokyo Underground (yay, finally got more! gave up trying to get a.f.k. sub with BitTorrent and got an older sub through DC instead! genius [can I spell? :S ]). What am I in the mood for? I think I'll pick Wolf's Rain. Such a neat series! ::squeaks:: Toboe! :D Eh hem, anyway, ja ne!
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:57 p.m.
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
::takes a deep breath:: Exam is tomorrow... ::cries:: But least after that's been and gone, I can finally relax and move on to other things! I'll need to apply for collage for Physics and Chemistry Highers. I need to start trying to read books again. I want to re-install Viavoice Dictation thingy so that I can attempt to write something (even although the dictation thing isn't usually overly accurate). Plus, I'll need to do all those test things again, where I read out a load of random sentences and then I move on to read the beginning of Alice in Wonderland. :S I never have spoken clearly, and it rarely likes what I say so I have to say the same things over and over again. But I want to write, damn it! I know dictation probably won't help since it's the concentration to form decent plot/storylines that I'm lacking, I can still try and do MSWDT since it never had a plot to begin with. ;) And once Viavoice is back on Compy, it can read stuff back to me, so I could listen to fics again (even if it doesn't always read it right, and it's disturbingly obvious that it's a computer voice). Plus the Occupational Therapist wants me to increase the physical exercise more too, so I'll need to work on that too.
The tutor did come today (apparently she simply forgot about yesterday, but angry 'me' has gone to sleep or something so I'm fine with it now ;) ). Went over the problems I had, reminding me about stuff that I hadn't done for years that still might come into the exam, gave me a list of equations I should remember, that sort of thing. Meant to go over them this evening, but didn't want to touch the things. I've still got the paper I used for the prelim with the basics on it, so I'm sure I'll have enough time in the morning to fling on a few more, remind myself of a couple of things, and set off. It's going to be an abnormally early start for me, but no choice there.
Finally managed to find time and relatively dry weather to go sit at my spot on the shore today. Stayed there for about an hour. I had brought a notepad and music with me, but didn't touch it until 20min before I left and that was just to amuse myself with the Jungle wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu soundtrack. Don't know where all the time went. Probably managed to stop my mind from thinking since I can't remember anything much other than wondering if bugs felt pain. On the way home though, I found some energy I don't think I should have used. I'm seriously having problems getting up the stairs now. My legs are so weak. Stupid energy suddenly appeared and I instinctively used it even when I knew I'd be killing myself afterwards. Hope it doesn't last into tomorrow since I plan to go to the exam on the bike, then afterwards go straight to the beach again.
Anyway, I'm later than I planned to be and I wouldn't mind having an early night in the hopes it makes up for the disrupted sleep I'm getting these days. I hope that stops after the exam is over, cos I don't want to think about any other reason my mind might be disturbed. Well, my nightly anime is waiting. I'll just need to wait to see what tomorrow will give me. See you then! :S
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:43 p.m.
Monday, May 19, 2003
I wanna go curl up in a hole filled with sticks! Nice cosy hole I can hiss at the entire population from. Not in the best of moods today... well, right now anyway. Was bouncing around earlier (got more DN Angel, can you blame me! ;) ). Maybe it's the exam nervousness or something, I don't know.
The tutor was supposed to come round today, at midday/lunchtime, but she never appeared at all! I'm certainly pissed at that. She's done that to me before, but she was ill then so I shouldn't complain. But if she's just forgotten then I'm very very angry! I've got the exam in 2 days! I wanted a day to go over any points she may have made when she visited. But now I guess I'll just have to do it all in one day. If she comes tomorrow at all. Cos if she doesn't, then I know my nerves are gonna be shot! It's bad enough having to go for an exam at the school, never mind not having the teacher go over the problems I've been having with some of the questions!
And since I was stuck inside all day, waiting for her to show, I couldn't get out. Sucks! The weather looked nice, and I was desperate to go sit in my spot on the shore! But no, I had to hang about the house, wasting time. I hate wasting time! (I'll get on to that in a minute) And by the time I finally decided there wasn't a chance at all of her coming, I got ready to go on my bike, and it rains. And it didn't go off until just a few moments ago! And it looks nice again. If I could, I would go down to the shore now and watch the sun set. But I've run out of energy by now. Too late to do anything! >(
As to wasting time... well, maybe again it's nerves or something... but lately my mind keeps telling me I don't have any time to waste. By all rights, I should have been going to Glasgow Uni in August! But no, I'm still here, having to be looked after cos I don't have the energy or concentration for any kind of job. So I have to go to collage to get qualifications I should have got a year ago! Damn it! That'll be 2 years wasted! 2 years when I could have got so much further, been so much more skilled in all areas, not to mention being independant! I've got to make up for lost time. Part of me wants to just turn off this computer, get out a ton of physics and chemistry books and cramming like never before! I probably would if I could concentrate to read them. I don't want to waste another year sitting in this bloody chair! But there isn't a choice for me any more! Cos I can't do a bloody thing! All I'm capable now is doing maths (and I couldn't manage without a calculator even really simple things!) and maybe making it to the shore if I'm energentic enough. So pathetic! Everybody keeps going on about how I've improved, I've gotten so much better, but what is the point of an improvement if it doesn't make a slightest bit of difference? I really want myself back again. I want to pack some food and notepad and music and whatever and leave in the morning to go cycle miles and miles and not come home 'til evening. I want to study real stuff that actually has an impact somewhere! I want to do something. But the only time I can do anything is when I have a computer in front of me! So even if I don't want to be here, to stop from feeling completely useless, I stay. Cos being useless is one of my worst fears...
Yeah, now I'm feeling considerably more depressed, but I feel calmer none-the-less. I should probably make some brief mention as to where I've been lately. Well, Saturday, trying to get away from the computer for a bit, I went to watch the original Matrix movie, since my mum hadn't seen it and wasn't sure if she wanted to go see the new one. Made a nice change of pace for me, to lose my mind into somewhere else for the evening. Somewhere I'd been before, but hadn't visited for ages. Such a neat movie! ;)
As to Sunday, I was round at Saku's. Got completely drenched on the way there. Stupid rain just started as I went out the door and just kept getting worse. Certainly insentive to go faster though. ;) Pan came round later too and we all watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail. Funny funny movie. I'd been wanting to watch it again for ages! :)
But by late evening, I was feeling zapped and went home, yawning my head off (kinda wished it would come off so the headache would leave me alone). Got home to discover my dad has disconnected me again. Been trying to learn to ration the downloads a little more than usual.
My head hurts, so I'll be leaving. Got the urge to watch Hoshi no Koe (been listening to the soundtrack). Hope I can find the CD...
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:21 p.m.
Friday, May 16, 2003
Was just reading some more random chat in DC. There can be some really cool or funny stuff in there. I just lurk and read everyone's conversation. ;) Some really neat stuff. I've saved it. I can use it as inspiration for some fic in the future. I can't believe the guy came up with it on the spot. If I tried that, it would be something to do with yoghurts and badgers, or the like. :S I remember the old conversations I used to read in the MKBO hub chat, back when I was still using the original DC client. They had Robo_Llama! That was so cool! Insulted ppl and made them dance and strip! ;) I still really wanna make my own Robo_Llama! But of course with improvements, namely methods of 'self-defence'. ;)
But anyway, on to something slightly more serious ::refrains from rambling about Jungle wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu finishing again:: I've got 4 more days of revision before the exam! I just finished doing another paper before I came online, and all I can say is: How the hell am I supposed to do 2 papers in one day? I don't know how I managed to survive the prelim. In fact, if I remember rightly, I couldn't get out of there quick enough so didn't check any of the answers. And with the real exam being somewhat more stressful, I'm going to be even worse. I already am! That last paper was infuriating cos I kept making dumb mistakes like confusing positive and negative signs. This is the sort of stuff that no tutor can help me with. Somehow I've got to keep my concentration for 6 or something hours. I've been toying in my mind whether on Tuesday if I'll have a rest day, or if I'll have a final cram day. I want a rest day (I want a rest month but I can't get that!), but I know I'm going to hate myself if I don't have a cram day. ::sigh:: Gonna kill my brain before I even get to the exam! :S
Typical crappy weather is back, but I still went a cycle ride. I'm definitely getting to ambitious. If my phone hadn't died, I probably would have phoned my dad to come and pick me up with his truck. Stupid phone never even tells me before it powers off anymore. Sometimes it even does it with a full battery. Electric stuff really acts weird after spending enough time with me. Still, managed to get out when it was dry, and it only drizzled a little while I sat on the beach. Was fun watching kamikaze birds dive-bombing the sea. ;) Then I was watching tiny little birds that sounded like combs. Then a guy with rubber gloves and a bucket had the front to give me a weird look for being there. Talk about suspicious looking! :S
Let's see, what else did I do today? Oh yeah, I was watching 3 eps of E's Otherwise. Really cool! Not to mention Yuuki rules! Matsumoto Yasunori as the seiyuu, so naturally! I mean, Gourry (Slayers) and Hiro (Gravitation), come on! ;) But unfortunately this anime has a Wufei look-a-like! Only, he's blond (and I use the term 'he' loosely). I wasn't completely sure if he was a guy for the first few episodes (and I'm still getting confused). He's SCARY! Doesn't help he's called Shenlong! :S But thankfully he didn't pop up into those episodes much. As for plot, it's to do with Espers who this government organisation uses as weapons (or something along those lines). Cool fantasy style fighting with some sci-fi stuff mixed in, a cross of drama and comedy, and some cross-dressing just to top it off. ::laughs:: That was hilarious! But disturbingly successful! :S ... ::laughs some more::
I'm really really confused. I'm getting tons of cool OSTs from this person in DC, only the names of the files don't have what series they are from. So I'm really lost and confused! Some of the files have info when I put them into Winamp and that's great, only sometimes they don't show up what I need to know, or they are the funny characters when the original info was in Japanese or something. It's really really annoying when I can recognise the music, but haven't a clue where it's from! GYAH! ... INSPIRATION! I'll download the persons file list again. Can't go wrong if I have that... I hope... ::scuttles back to DC again:: Just got to wait for the current file to finish, whatever it is. :S
I had a cool dream last night! My mind was playing with the idea of when AIs become living beings in their own right. Would have made a really neat fic (or even a movie if possible), if only I could remember more of it. But I'm pretty sure the main character was supposed to be the Major from Ghost in the Shell. She is really cool though, so no surprise she was kicking ass in the dream. >D Really wanna remember more! ::pout::
Was waking up several times again last night too. ::sigh:: Although one of the times, I meant to wake up. Set my watch for 4am, to see if the sky was clear since I'd heard there was a lunar eclipse. The moon is supposed to turn red, so naturally I'm desperate to see one! Has to rule over a solar eclipse since when I saw that one when it passed over France, I could not be much more bored. Oh look, there's a shadow. Oh look, the sun's gone. Oh look, there it's back again. :S I've never been overly interested in the sun or stars. It's planets and moons that interest me, mainly cos you can walk on those (if you could there anyway ;) ). But like predicted, it was cloudy. So just went straight back to bed again. But then I woke up again, and I know why! At first I thought it was an alarm or something in my room. I was wracking my mind for something I bought recently that might complain at me. I sat up and tried to figure out where the sound was coming from. The corner of the ceiling where the birds are nesting. DAMN THEM! They never shut up (at least when the sun's up)! I can see the parent birds coming in and out, bringing food and as soon as they disappear from sight, the babies all start off making as much noise as possible. At first I attacked the ceiling with my stick and that shut them up, but they seem to be getting used to that by now. ::sigh:: Really gonna have to kill them if they wake me up again! I am not supposed to get up when the sun does! It's unnatural! >S
Might as well go. At this pace I'll just keep rambling here while I listen to all these new MP3s again and again and every so often add one that just finished.
Oh wait wait wait! Before I go, make a quick note, incase I forget or if someone else is interested. I checked and there is going to be a Matrix night on Channel 5 on 21st. Can't remember when it starts but I think the original Matrix movie begins at 9 or something (but don't hold me to it). I'm just amazed that Channel 5 have the rights to the Matrix! I thought the only decent program they had was The Wright Stuff and that's just a discussion program that is live so it's funny quite often. ;) One other good thing I'm looking forward to is Thursday nights on Sci-fi. Aparently they are going to be playing Burn Up Excess. Burn Up W was pretty neat of what I've seen of it... ok it's full or bouncing breasts and panty shots and whatever nudity it can get, but hey, it's funny! :P I read some reviews for it and they said that Excess had less of a plot than W, so maybe it won't be that great. But I always wait to see for myself. I'm very stubborn that way. Plus Ghost in the Shell is going to replayed again in June too. I've still not seen that movie even although I like the TV series that's coming out right now (nearly got another episode of that, if it wouldn't die :S).
Right, I'm going, I'm going. Now I have the decision of should I watch Wolf's Rain, serious but cool, or Stellvia of the Universe, cutesy but with interesting plot. I think I need cheered up after that maths. Stellvia it is... I think... Yeah! Stellvia... but Wolf's Rain is so... NYAAAHHH!!! Stellvia Stellvia Stellvia! Decided! Me leave and start it before I change my mind! Mata ne!
Xilmin visited the elves at 10:22 p.m.
