Friday, June 27, 2003
::looks at rain:: I would glare but I think my face has dried up in neutral expression from lack of sleep. :S Anyway, good weather's gone and buggered off. ::sniff sniff:: Been raining all day (I believe. I can't say I was all that aware of anything earlier on). No more cycle rides to collapse on the grass in the sun. No more lying out in the garden with my wonderful wireless headphones, listening to Compy's music outside. I'm trapped inside! WAAAAAHHHHHH!!!
As to why I'm so tired: I spent the night at Pan's. It was exactly a week ago since I last did that, since it was anime night on Sci-Fi channel last time too. Yeah for the wonder that is anime. I'd seen the movie before: Roujin Z. But it's good. Pan refused to watch it though cos I told her it was 'bout old men and played Mario upstairs instead. Che! It's a hilarious movie too! She didn't know what she was missin'! :(
Plus at night, the skills I am most proud of are toned to perfection: to infuriate and freak out others! ::cackles evilly:: My wonderful 'poke! poke poke! poke poke poke! poke poke poke poke!' Then I disappear into the darkness and just when everyone thinks it's safe... pounce! >D ...I'm innocent! I swear!
But now I really need a shower! Ah, I can't be bothered sorting hair before I go to bed. It can wait 'til tomorrow. I'm such a slob! :S ::attacks her hair... then starts sniffing it:: It smells of old peaches! ...or maybe my senses are all screwed up again... as usual. ;)
Anyway... gumlaggy sniffschnee. geleeshin... I need sleep... been gibbering all day... I need a translator for my mind. I wanna know what it's saying all the time! :S I think I'm just collapse in this chair with some anime until I finally collapse a bit too much and fall off. Then I can just curl up there and die! Yay! ... ::sniff sniff:: but I'm all alone! As I have said many times: sleeping alone sucks! :'(
Anyway, me go. Kill my mind with kawaii anime. Got couple eps of Narue no Sekai to watch. Then of course I have to go chase up some more Slayers Next, but that goes without saying. ;) I, Xellos, shall help me, Xi, to keel over and die happily! ;) ...::thinks about that sentence for a bit:: Oh, I'm too dane-bread for this sort of stuff right now! I'm outta here! :P
Xilmin visited the elves at 07:23 p.m.
Wednesday, June 25, 2003
Been out all afternoon! Wow! The weather was great, which always helps! ;) So here goes with everything I did...
I left at 'bout 12 to go to the Occupational Therapist person again. She told me that she couldn't get me any paid jobs, but she was talking with these ppl at this volunteering place. ::sigh:: So in other words, my stubbornness for getting a paid job was a complete waste of time. There just ain't anything for someone who doesn't know when they are going to be able to available, or even alive. :S Anyway, she took me to this voluntary organisation place and we talked with ppl about the sorts of jobs (rather they talked, I listened like usual) and I filled in a couple of forms. I'm going along with them on Tuesday to... a place... to help disabled ppl with computers. It should just be me watching them work that day to see what sort of stuff I'd have to do. If it ain't for me, then I can always just say "Ah forget it!" I wouldn't be surprised if it was like that. Afterall, I know I can be patronising when dealing with 'idiots'. :S But hey, I go, I give it a shot. What's the worst that could happen? ...oh, I'm just asking for trouble, aren't I?
After that, I went on my bike along the shore, then up the river a bit to the arch place that I like. Collapsed there and listened to the Nadesico soundtrack. ;) It was so nice, lying in the sun, staring up at perfect blue sky! I wanna do it again! I woulda stayed longer, only then I realised I was hungry and needed the toilet. :S
I stopped by Pan's on the way home (by which time I'd forgotten I needed food or the toilet. I wanna know how I do that! :S ). I was planning to give her the Matrix Reloaded movie on VCD, but of course she wasn't there. I shoulda known really. But if I hadn't gone, then I would have found out she was home. It's the way it works! :S I hung about since her family were expecting her home any time and I just watched her sister play the Sims (and mocked her when her person got stuck cos there wasn't enough doors! ;) ) and drove the dogs insane with my mere presence. ;) But naturally she didn't appear. Of course. :S Then the hunger reappeared, by which time it was 4:30 and I hadn't eaten anything since 9, so it's no wonder my stomach was bugging me. So I finally went home.
There are still a couple of problems with my bike. The most obvious when I'm riding around is my seat squeaks. But the one that seriously pisses me off is when I try and go into the lowest gear, the chain gets stuck. ::growls:: I coulda made it up the hill today, I'm sure of it, but no! The bike has to die under me! >(
I hope the weather stays like this tomorrow too. I'm thinking of taking some grub with me, and just leaving in the morning, and hanging about until late afternoon by the arch with my music. I can watch for rabbits and poke bees with blades of grass and yell abuse at birds for having the ability to fly (you know, the usual sorta stuff ;) )
Alright, tomorrow I really need to sort my mail. It's all piling up and most likely everyone who sent me stuff has forgotten that they did in the first place. But tomorrow, I swear I get started on working through it. I should also get more work done on Anime Shelter. Actually visit the forum for once and send what requests there are. Or what would be even more amazing is if I did work on Nonsical Sense! Wow, I haven't thought about working with that thing in ages! I've been doing some art too. And I could put up some of my old fics. I could put up the 'potential' first chapter of Star Wars Gets Hacked (what was once known as My Star Wars Dream Thingy, or rather MSWDTTILBCHRBISUNCIROOR... It's really quite depressing I can still remember the full title :S ). I always give myself so much work to do, but so little of it actually gets done. Why must I be an ambitious stubborn perfectionist? It's killin' me! :S
::glances in mirror:: Hee hee! Panda-face! Hee hee! I guess that's what I get for never taking my sunglasses off when I'm in the sun. I do that, and I blind myself! :S But least I've a tan! Just as long as I don't go and burn my legs again. Nah, I'm sure they'll be fine without me worrying. I mean, aside from the pain and the burning and the itchiness, it was quite amusing to drive myself insane... ::sigh:: Please, someone, shoot me already! I can't bare myself much longer! I pity all who know me, even just slightly. I can be so so annoying. :S
::keeps glancing out the window, and keeps blinding herself:: Oooh! Spots! Coloured spots! ::hands grab at air in front of her face:: Hee hee! ::looks out window again:: Ah, god, stop that! It may be pretty colours, but bloody hell, it's no use looking when I can't see anything else. Wai! The sun's going behind the trees now! I can look at purty colours! :D
Well, that was an... interesting... conversation with Saku. I'd forgotten about that 'play' we were supposed to be doing. There is no way I could put across the hilarity of it here. With pirates and wizards and amazon women and the 'udder of innocense'... ::laughs:: I can't wait! >D
::opens curtains fully for the first time the entire day:: Kirei! Sun red and glowing low behind the trees, sky pink and purple, sea the exact same colours, vague hint of Arran across the sea: SUGOI! ... but I need to go. I'm back to much the same time as usual. Well, only 1 ep to watch now, just Slayers. Yay for me... uh, I mean Xellos! Yay for Zelgadis & Gourry! Yay yay yay yay yay! ;) So I'm off! Plus, it's time for some grub! Itadakimasu! ;)
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:51 p.m.
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
And so... I... die... ::collapses on desk:: ahhhh... floouuuushhhhh niieeee... ::hand flails in the direction of the screen:: ... ::picks self up slowly, yawns, breaks yaw, goes blind:: ...ah, mou! ::balances self before she falls out of the chair::
I need sleep. I need lots of sleep. But I refuse to let myself sleep in (which is just plain evil on my part, but it's all for the 'greater good of me' or something like that). So that means I go to bed early for once! Which is why I'm here at this time, rather than an hour later.
Been working on Anime Shelter stuff most of the day. That Streamload Cataloger program thing certainly speeds stuff up! :) Not quite got to a satisfactory point to upload the pages, but I'm definitely a lot further on that I was. Yay! I did work! That's really quite amazing! ;)
More good news: My bike's fixed! (I think). My dad was mucking around with it last night, and it seemed to last the little cycle ride I took it this morning, so hopefully it doesn't die on me again. Need to get into the whole idea of 'going outside' again. If only the weather was still as good as it was before the flat tire. ::stares glumly at the clouds:: Sure there were breaks in the clouds earlier (I still wore sunglasses... although that doesn't really say much to do with the weather coming from me ;) ). Least it ain't raining! ::awaits the water to start falling from the sky::
I've been counting my 'me's lately. Since a new one hasn't cropped up for a while, it seemed like a decent enough time so I wouldn't lose count again. 16! 16! There should not be that many personalities in one head! There are bound to be more, just now 'the rest' are just an indistinguishable blob in the back of my mind. I should at least give them all names and come up with seperate images for each one before I get completely lost in my own head. ::sweatdrop:: But I have been comforted by something I heard on some documentary tv show thing. Apparently the gene that gives people intelligence has also been linked with schizophrenia! ::grins:: That explains a whole load of things! Mainly why I am such an idiotic genious at times (I'm still refusing to spell that right! :P ). The fools who think I'm an innocent intelligent 'teacher's pet'! Ha! I shall use their ignorance against them one day! Just wait! ::evil laughter::
::blank stare:: I think I'm out for today. Time to get supper and watch 1 episode of anime (just 1! Unlike that time I had both Slayers & DN Angel and I watched them both! Is it any wonder I'm needing sleep so desperately if I keep doing that sort of thing!)... but I really wanna watch more Slayers... well, maybe if I'm really quick with supper and what-not, I won't be too late... oi oi... I have no resistance power when it comes to this sort of stuff! :S ::shoos self off:: Ok ok ok, I'm outta here before it is too late for 2 eps! Ja ne!
Xilmin visited the elves at 08:53 p.m.
Monday, June 23, 2003
I updated Anime Shelter! Wai wai wai wai! Go me! ...
TROGDOR!!! TROGDOR!!! BURNINATING THE COUNTRYSIDE! BURNINATING THE PEASANTS! TROGDOR!!!
... eh hem... I shouldn't a' got that... But Trogdor rules! ...ok, I doubt very many ppl actually know what the hell Trogdor is, so check this site out! Strong Bad Then go down to 'dragon'. 'Techno' was pretty funny too. Well, I just enjoy the song! :P The site's hilarious! Enjoy! :P
Oh yeah, Anime Shelter. Well, I encoded some Mouse & GateKeepers 21. Discovered that I took a CD box from Saku that doesn't have a CD in it. If it ain't around her house somewhere, I shall have to hunt down those responsible in true freaky style. ::lunges around the room in 'Lord of the Rings animation ringwraith' style (aka dislocates every single bone in her body):: I shall freak all those who dare taunt me! Banyai! >D
I've been having a fun day, singing along to all the wonderful songs I have listened to ages. Which reminded me of a fic I was going to write ages ago. There were loads of songs I was going to include in it as if it was a soundtrack. Damn that was some old stuff. According to the date, I wrote it in December of 2001! I still had Linux on Compy (which made the thing completely illegible :( ) I only vaguely have the idea of it any more, and what I wrote in my 'ideas' file wasn't exactly helpful. Then again, most of the stuff in there doesn't really make much sense. "Apple feathery flying monster." Tell me, how is that an 'idea'? ::sniff:: Whatever, it's not like I can write anything these days. Can't even read! ::cries:: Why can't M.E. just leave me alone already! :'(
I've also been doing origami this morning. Been working on the 'soma cube' since Saturday. Finally finished all the pieces after who knows how many hours, and it only took me a couple of minutes to solve the thing. ::sweatdrop:: No where near as challenging as my brother's thingy that was a sort of 3D cross thing. That was really hard! :S
Really need to get into sending emails again. I keep doing the 'I'll get back to that in a bit'... only 'a bit' lasts several weeks. :S For anyone waiting for me to get back to you, I'll reply... 'in a bit'... ;)
I've been listening to one particular j-rock band lately: Porno Graffitti. Don't know why they're called that ;) but their songs are really catchy. Found someone on DC with several albums of theirs', so I've been downloading the lot of them. And I still wonder where all the space on my hard drive goes! ;) I try to hold back on what I download, but it's so hard when there are so many good things out there! Still, it has to be a good sign when my dad hasn't disconnected me lately! ... ::realises something:: Oh yeah, he was away on a camping trip. That would explain it! ;:sweatdrop::
Speaking of camping trips, apparently my family are going to the Western Isles on the 7th or the 11th (when I say family, this excludes my brother for some reason. Whatever the reason is, I'm not going to complain ;) ). I think it's just a week. But still, a whole week with no compy, no tv, no electricity of any kind! I don't know if I'll be able to cope. By the time it gets to the last day, I'll probably be halucinating and trying to plug the dog into a tree! ;)
I really gotta be going. Need to pay more attention to the time. :S Got more Matantei Loki Ragnarok to watch now anyway (finally! been trying to get that episode since... ::goes to check:: ah geez! since the 14th! It's about time it finished!). Anyway anyway anyway... ::pause:: aw crud... mum being evil and chasing me off to bed! this means I don't get to watch any anime tonight! ::sniff:: Now and lunch time are the only times I even watch any these days! ::sweatdrop:: Oh well, maybe I'll just have to force myself to watch some more during the day then. Aw, what a pity that will be! ;)
Xilmin visited the elves at 10:58 p.m.
Sunday, June 22, 2003
Just got back from spending the day with Saku. In other words, so much for working on Anime Shelter. ::sweatdrop:: Tomorrow! Tomorrow! I promise! I swear! ...at least, I might do it... ::holds head:: Damn I'm lazy. That's what happens when I don't get paid for the work! :P
Anyway, me and Saku went a wander along the shore and back with her dog, her eternally singing, the dog eternally trying to get in the way. ::sudden memory leaps back into her mind:: Oh yeah, Saku mentioned going... somewhere... tomorrow... I think... hmmm... Oh well, maybe I won't be on the computer. ::shrugs:: Ah well, what a disappointment! :P
I've already forgotten half of what happened today (bloody crappy memory :S ), but I do remember watching 'The Sixth Voyage of Sindbad' ... or was it the 'Seventh'... Ah whatever. Either way, it was hilariously crap. Oh the scary plasticene monsters! No! No! Save me! :P Saku is obsessed with all the old movies she grew up watching (while I never watched anything [or did anything for that matter] when I was younger ;) ) so naturally she just had to watch it. ::sweatdrop:: Oh well, it amused me. That's what counts! ;)
::yawns:: It's later than I thought it was. No wonder I've been yawning my head off for the past hour or so. So much for the 'needing sleep' last night. I went downstairs to take my glass and whatever to the kitchen, annoying the dog by teasing him with his bone, and ended up watching Stigmata. My mum was complaining about all the screaming and the blood, but there are much worse than that! ::rolls eyes:: So she went to bed, and I stayed up to watch it with my dad & bro. I didn't mean to. It's just a good movie. And I'd forgotten what happened in it. Makes a change for me to watch a decent american movie! ;) So I'm now very tired. Neeeeed sleeeeep! ::yawns again::
Oh wait, forget that! I demand to watch the next ep of Slayers Next. Xellos appeared in episode 2! Woohoo I do have to admit he does have a certain 'me' quality (aka he freaks out most of everyone and just plain pisses off the rest ;) ) About 10 minutes and all the parts should finish downloading... but then again, I have more DN Angel... AHHH!!! How am I supposed to decide between those!?! On the one hand,there is Slayers, complete with humour, magic, action, amusing characters, drool-worthy characters, etc. On the other hand, there is Dark! ... awww jeez! Dark is beyond all comparison. No one beats him... yet... I don't know if I bare the rest of the characters in DN Angel. Particularly Risa. Damn, she can get frustrating. Least she's pretty much useless and dumb, so it's not like the 'perfect' girl gets the best guy. Personally, I think it should be Riku who gets Dark anyway, if anyone does. Afterall, this is Dark. He flirts with every hot chick he comes across. But for him to be devoted... could that be possible? Ah well, I don't care about that! :P Dark is Dark and I like that! Plus DN Angel also has Hiwatari-kun. I mean, he's nothing in comparison to Dark... but still. Plus there are the seiyuu. Dark is Okiayu Ryoutarou (the best seiyuu ever!) and Hiwatari-kun is Ishida Akira. But then Xellos is also Ishida Akira. And Slayers also has Matsumoto Yasunori and Midorikawa Hikaru... ::head explodes:: Awww, come on, this is cruel! I've got 2 minutes to decide. There's Dark and he's >D ...but then there's Niwa and Risa and they're :S On the other hand, with Slayers, everything points to a :D Not as good as a >D but it sure beats a :S ::sweatdrop:: Alright, I'll resist the temptation to just simple watch DN Angel to drool. Maybe I'll just watch the opening. That should keep me going. ;) Slayers shall keep me amused enough, I'm sure.
Finally, that's decided. And all the parts are finished downloading. Ok, that's me off. Itekimasu! :)
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:48 p.m.
