Tuesday, May 6, 2003
Was feeling pretty crappy for most of the day. Couldn't get myself to my smile except when I remembered DN Angel (I'll get on to that later), and even then it was the most pathetic smile ever! I ended up collapsed on the couch, too dead to turn on the TV or the radio, then when I finally moved (when nature calls, you don't exactly wanna defy it ;) ), I ended up sitting on the floor crosslegged, listening to meditation music and gripping my stick. I think I went a little weird, started shaking and tried to throttle the stick. I swear I bent and twisted it. Certainly there are green marks where my fingers were. :S
I think it was Escaflowne that cheered me up. Downloaded several episodes a while ago but never got to watch them, even although they are what are taking up a lot of space. Still, pretty cool. Then again, I'd forgotten it was Seki Tomokazu and Miki Shinichirou. ::huge grin:: Is it any wonder I cheered up. ;)
Compy's been pissed at me since last night. I think it's jealous! ;) I was watched DN Angel last night. Fantastic anime! Yay yay yay! I've been through this before when I first watched the anime but Dark is so very very VERY! (there ain't actually a word though, just 'very' :P ) The thing is my body temperature is very dependant on my mood (was freezing most of today cos I was feeling so crap). I had to bring out my home-made fan to cool myself down after watching that episode! ::sweatdrop:: If it wasn't Okiayu Ryoutarou's voice then I might be able to cope, but damn it! GRRRRRR!!!! MUROW! ;) Anyway, I wanted to watch his scenes again so I try to open the file again, and Compy goes and crashes on me! And it was still being awkward when I booted it up this afternoon cos it wouldn't open DivX player! Evil machine! So I reinstalled it... several times! Stubborn machine! But it seems to be relatively fixed now. Probably complain again if I start pawing at the screen again but if it wants me to attack it's insides with my wonderful anti-mechanical skills, then that's just fine! >D
Eh hem... Must think of something else... But Dark is so very very very! Muh-roow-owwww!!! ;) I'd seen images from the manga, but I think he looks so much cooler in the anime! ::starts ranting a whole load of stuff but can't be bothered typing any of it::
Gomen, I think I might be becoming a little obsessed! ;) Anyway, what else can I talk about. Maths tutor was round again today, but even shorter time than usual since I had a total of 3 or so questions that I had problems and the rest I managed fine (ok, it took me most of yesterday to do it all but I guess the important thing it I did it even if the exam is timed and if I don't do enough or screw up cos I'm rushing then I have to do another year of the same bloody work and I'll loose my mind with that! but I did it... don't I sound so convincing :S)
I'm off to get some supper and decide on an anime to watch (must resist watching DN Angel again... why? no, got plenty new stuff that I haven't touched yet. shall watch more of that). I think I have some GetBackers. Now that's bishounen full! That should make do for missing out on Dark... maybe... ::sweatdrop::
But I just wanna keep typing and listen to all this music I randomly downloaded half an hour ago (was after something else that I heard on Top of the Pops 2 that reminded me of some annoying j-pop or smile.dk song. Hooray Hooray It's a holiday! Say's it all really. But I couldn't connect to anyone with it on Kazaa... what am I thinking? Why don't I try DC... ::scampers off to look for it:: Woohoo! Getting it! Only 10 min! ::congratulates self:: So I'll hang about here and ramble 'til it's finished! :)
Let's see... all I know is I'm tired. Been getting up at 10 every morning for about 2 weeks and since I haven't been getting to sleep for ages, it's catching up on me. Not really something I should complain about, but it stopped me from going a little cycle ride round the block or whatever today because I felt so crap and tired and my mind was going so slow and wouldn't talk to me. Sucks when it does that. Sure it sucks when it does talk, but least it keeps me company. :S I feel lonely when it goes quiet like it did today. :S
Oh, I really like this song! Didn't even realise it was by Meatloaf or I would have downloaded it ages ago!
I want you (I want you)
I need you (I need you)
But there ain't way I'm ever gonna love you
Now don't be sad
Cos 2 out of 3 ain't bad
::laughs:: Really appropriate for me, cos there ain't no way I'm capable of the 'L' word! :P
Yay! Just a minute left... You know, I think I'll re-do a small tape of mine so I can listen to these in bed. ::evil grin as she imagines what Fusage and the others will do to her as she bounces around singing songs like this:: My own world is the best! Can't survive without that! >D
::starts listening to the song and dies:: Now I remember why I wanted to get this song. ::collapses in laughter:: Ha-li ha-li ho! Hooray! Hooray! It's a holi-holiday! Fusage's really gonna kill me for getting this one. And I thought Doo-bi-di-boy was bad. This one's down right evil! Holi-holiday ::cackles hysterically::
Now I've got to waste time while I wait for the music to record. I've got plenty of time now... oh wait! I just remembered! I have more Fruits Basket manga! Oh please have Ayame! I'm off! Itekimasu! Ha-li ha-li ho!
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:38 p.m.
Monday, May 5, 2003
::smacks hand on face:: ... ow, my nose... Eh hem! Anyway! Meant to put this in the last entry but I was in such a rush to leave, I forgot! :S
You're the psychotic grin,and no one can quite tell
if you're insane or just really hyper.You scare
people,and i mean scare them a lot.Kati'd be
friends with you though.You two could have
sleepovers together and make pasta at 4 am.
What Kind of Smile are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
I'm really proud of that result! I've done plenty of other tests, but I can never be bothered including them here (mainly cos the majority of them, with my confusing personalities, I get very wrong results! And even when I do the same test again and still answer every question truthfully I can still get different results :S )
Anyway, I was in a rush to get my supper and I still am so shutting up and leaving for good this time! Mata ne!
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:45 p.m.
Monday, May 5, 2003
I bet your asking where I was yesterday... actually you're probably asking where you are and what you are doing here...
"Oh great, it's another one of those stupid blog/journal sites where someone who has no life rambles about stuff nobody cares about" ::closes window::
Scum! Fine! I never wanted to have visitors like you anyway! ::sticks tongue out:: ..... ::looks about pathetically. sniffs:: I'm all alone! There's no one here beside me! ... ::straightens up:: But that doesn't matter cos...
I don't care what you say anymore
This is my life!
Go ahead with your own life
Leave me alone!
I never said you had to offer me a second chance
I never said I was a victim of circumstance
I still belong
Don't get me wrong
And you can speak your mind
But not on my time
I don't care what you say anymore
This is my life!
Go ahead with your own life
Leave me alone
Keep it to yourself
It's my life!
Eh heh, on second thoughts, maybe it's better if everyone ignores me... but I can't help it! I like that song! :P
I think I'm getting even more off the 'subject' than usual (if there was a subject to get off of in the first place). Alright alright, what should I say. Well, what happened yesterday is a good start.
Pan-chan came round yesterday. Yay! :D Not that I can remember much that happened, but that always happens when I'm around ppl and having fun. ;) I just remember her insisting on cleaning up the kitchen. ::sweatdrop:: But I like living in a tip! And the kitchen's the best bit cos it gets unhygienic too. ;) Maybe not the healthiest attitude but it's easier this way. :P
But her heart was giving her trouble earlier that day and she had work the next morning, so she couldn't stay long. ::pout:: ... ::cries:: So had to spend another night with my mind! Forgotten what the dreams were again, but I think there was something to do with assasins and aardvarks or ant-eaters. Don't ask me, that's what the mind is reminding me of. Or maybe I'm just getting confused with that anime I watched when I had supper last night.
Matantei Loki Ragnarok. One of the latest releases! Really cool, although a bit too much chibi-ness. Still, there's a couple of guys that caught my eye. Particularly the guy with Miki Shinichirou's voice (forgotten the actual characters name ::sweatdrop::). Plus the plot has to do with Midgard and Asgard and all that viking sort of mythology, which just rules! :D
As to today, been doing maths maths maths and yet more maths. Got a couple of papers done now for tutor coming tomorrow. Probably not as much as she's expecting me to do, but I can't keep at it day after day or I'll lose the will to live, cos what's the point in living without some fun... then again, my meaning in life is to have fun. What other meaning could there be? :) And I can even enjoy maths some times, but not on a daily basis!
The only other thing I've done today is watch Gundam Seed and... oh wait... I'm confused... maybe Matantei Loki Ragnarok was today and Full Metal Panic was last night... oh I don't know! Anyway, wanna talk about Gundam Seed anyway! :)
Putting aside the list of really cool seiyuu (grudgingly), it's so cool! Although it may get through the plot line slowly, but still manage to have plenty in the anime to make missing an episode confusing as hell (which I have a feeling is a characteristic of Gundam series), the plot rules! I'm definitely coming to prefer it to Gundam Wing (the only gundam series I've actually seen nearly all of). For one thing, it has more moral dillemas and such, rather than just ppl who disagree about who gets what. Gundam Seed covers genetic... ::forgets the proper word:: ... 'genetic meddling'... ::sweatdrop:: There's a war between the Naturals (unsurprisingly these are the ppl who grow up as nature intended) and the Coordinators (these ppl have altered genes and such so they can be more superior, in fitness, learning, etc). And that's just the background. Then there's even more conflict between characters, like there should be.
But back to those seiyuu... ;) Main character is played by Hoshi Souichirou. Known to me for playing Ginnosuke (Tokyo Underground), the adorable geeky type that I adore, and Oujirou (Angelic Layer), super cool 'prince' type character that you just have to drool over. He also played Gupta in Jungle wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu, but I'm not interested in him (he's been tagged by Saku anyway, so I'd be dead if I touched him ;) ). Seki Tomokazu (Shindou-kun from Gravitation and plenty others that I can't be bothered mentioning), Seki Toshihiko (Duo from Gundam Wing, Benitora from Samurai Deeper Kyo), Ishida Akira (Kaoru from Eva, Sasuke from Samurai Deeper Kyo, Eyes from Spiral) and Koyasu Tokehito (Hotohori from Fushigi Yuugi, Keiki from Juuni Kokki, Jubei from GetBackers and Sakano from Gravitation and Hanagata from Saber Marionette J [but I'm ignoring those two]). ::drools over the lot of them:: Is it any wonder it's a cool anime when they got so many fantastic seiyuu! :D
Oh yeah, one other thing I noticed today. They don't just have human-shaped mecha. They had dog-shaped too for desert battles! Now I don't know of any other gundam series that did that sort of thing. The closest thing was when Wing and Epyon transform and that's just so they can fly properly. It just makes me think of Zoids (not that I know it all that well).
I think I've rambled enough... ::looks at watch and does a double take:: CRAP! My mum's back, and I'm supposed to have supper at 9 so I can have the anti-depressant pill thing that I don't believe I should be taking and isn't making any difference to me at least a decent time before bed. And she'll be shoving me off compy earlier than I have been lately. Ok, I'm kinda glad for that in some ways. It's bloody addictive! Particularly since when I start something, I don't like leaving 'til it's finished. I'm difficult that way...
And I'm just wasting yet more time! Why do I never learn?!? ... cos I'm too dumb too! :S I'm leaving now! Ja ne!
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:38 p.m.
Saturday, May 3, 2003
What to say? What to say? Much to say but... what that actually is... hmmm... Didn't blog yesterday cos... well... My mood wasn't... all that... stable... I'd been round to Saku's, then we met up with Pan-chan at the cinema and we went to see X-Men 2 (good movie, neat effects and all, but I wouldn't spend money on it when it comes out on DVD). However after that... well, during that, when there was loads of water, and there was snow about and it looked so very cold and wet, I started shivering. ::sweatdrop:: Then Aoiko strikes again! By the time I'd got home, I was tearing up! SHEESH! Why is there never a clear reason?!?
Still, Pup-pup seemed to want to cheer me up... or he just wanted food... actually that's more likely! ;) So I finished crying over his dish. Dog food isn't exactly the sort of thing that's easy to cry over. ;) But then after that... things weren't exactly all that settled. At a lack for anything better to do and not being in the mood to watch anime, I played Grand Theft Auto again. Ended up keeping going until I got the 'game over' sign which was about 10 (when I had meant to get into bed cos I was feeling tired ::sweatdrop::). Had some supper, watched some Naruto. Then... I went kinda weird... I picked up what remained of the stick I brought back from the New Year trip up north (I think my brother attacked it or something :S ) and started wondering around the house bouncing around and swinging it about, muttering about how I had to be crazy to act the way I do. It seemed so logical last night that I really was seriously insane, not just the usual joking term that I use to differentiate from the rest of the human race. Then I started mumbling about the benifits of being crazy and how I'd get compensation for not being able to do work like normal ppl. I could live in a big mansion/cave place that I built part of myself (or at least, design it myself), filled with computers, anime, red dwarf, matrix and various other obsessions of mine, and not forgetting my own personal telescope and machines that I can study other worlds with. Oh and nearly forgot to mention the huge room set aside for sticks, staffs, swords and whatever cool weapons I can lay my hands on. I adore weapons... plus I have a stick fetish! They're so cool! I can't help it! ;)
Anyway, where was I? Oh yeah, me rambling about how great it would be to be publicly insane. Being feared! Being avoided! Maybe even being loathed! ... oh wait, all that's probably already going on, but I want it on a much larger scale! ;) Well anyway, I kept on talking about that sort of stuff for ages. I could hear myself. I knew I was sounding like those evil geniuses in those really corny movies, but I meant every word. It was so weird. I wanted to make a comment about that to myself at the time, but I wouldn't shut up to let me say it. ::thinks about that for a second:: Maybe I am insane, or at least I was last night. ::shakes head in bewilderment:: I never have really understood myself anyway.
Alright, on to something else. What I did today. Went out for a little cycle ride. I felt like I was going to collapse by the time I got back. All I know is I have the urge to do some great things, probably cos my parents are away and I don't need to worry about them worrying about me, but as soon as I try to do something, my body and/or my mind scream at me. The Occupational Therapist kept asking me what is so bad about feeling exhausted, but I don't think she really gets how crap I feel when I'm exhausted. Just usually when I'm exhausted, I've been running on a high so I'm still in high spirits when I feel crap. :S Very little outside influence can affect my mood. It all just depends on the 'me's, and which ones are feeling like being in control. Although lately I have been feeling that... wait, what were my exact words? ... "Why is it that the 'me's I hate the most are the 'me's that are in the most control?" ... now I think about it, there is the saying, "You always become the thing you hate the most". I suppose it's true in my case, for the most part. :S
I've been putting off doing the maths work I should. I'm just lucky Grand Theft Auto crashed Compy so I took that as a hint to do something. 4 questions. Not much but my concentration is somewhat lacking more than usual right now. Which is making finding words right now kinda hard. Just have to rely on my original vocabulary, and that isn't all that varied. :S
I think that's everything. I'm just enjoying having the house to myself, so I can talk to myself without having to shut up as soon as I open the door. In fact, I've been leaving it alone so that the dog can hear me from downstairs (kinda feel sorry for him. He's left alone all day, while I'm either upstairs or out of the house. Still he usually just sleeps anyway, so you can't blame me for not paying him much attention). ::goes to check on the dog anyway:: He moved across the hallway bit, but he's still dead. ;)
You know, I really wanna learn some sort of sword/staff fighting skill, as well as the drums. I can understand why I wanna learn to fight properly. I pick up a stick and start bouncing around with it, but have no balance or grace, so I just look like an even bigger idiot than usual. ;) But the drums... I don't know why I've been wanting to learn to play that... Especially since I prefer music with melodies! ...but then when I can't sing to save myself (not that stops me when I've got my music playing. I pity the dog with his sensitive hearing ;) ) and when I try and play music from my head on the piano, I always end up out of key, I guess the drums is an easy way out for someone who thinks she has good rhythm. But somehow I don't think my parents would appreciate that. ;) And it would scare the crap out of my dog (the coward that he is)! So I just need to make do with chopsticks and any hard surface nearby. ;)
It's late, and I'm trying to have a conversation at the same time here, so this ain't easy. I better go and get supper. Kinda later than anticipated again. Just as long as I don't end up collapsing on the couch listening to Classic FM like I did last night and not bothering to make it to my bed, then I might get some decent sleep. What annoys me is I keep waking an hour or 2 before the alarm goes off. I want as much sleep as I can gain! Don't understand why my mind tries to wake me up cos even when I stay in bed 'til 10, I still get really sleepy... I'm rambling again! Yah! Right. Me leaving now. Ja ne!
Xilmin visited the elves at 10:46 p.m.
Thursday, May 1, 2003
Was most definitely scaring myself today. Akuma was being very dominant in my head and was desperate to kill something, anything, but the best there was was the dog, and all I did to him was yank him on the lead every time he stopped just to sniff. Was giving death glares to anyone who came near me. Most of them crossed the road or turned a corner (maybe they were originally but I like to think that Akuma gives off an evil aura that ppl avoid). I don't like it when she gets control, even when the other 'me's are holding her back. If she were to ever get completely loose, I don't want to think what I might do... Really disturbing to feel anger inside but nothing to aim it at so it just leaks out in every direction.
I tried a couple of things to improve my mood: watched anime, played computer games. Neither helped. Barely even a smirk. Pan phoned just before I came here. Did improve my mood somewhat, but now I can feel it all flooding back. I don't even know why exactly it started. Since I started feeling it yesterday, and after all the work I did yesterday, I'm going to guess that's it. Doing a whole load of stuff but feeling like I'm getting nowhere. Not exactly the sort of thing I would expect Akuma to get angry at, just something Aoiko would get depressed at. Or maybe it was the trip to the Occupational Therapist. The fact I've been trying and she keeps asking for more. That's her job, but I guess I can't help but get pissed off at it... if that is the reason...
Probably didn't help my mood that I still had to do maths today. I also forced myself to read some more this morning because I know I've been neglecting working on that area even although that's the area I'm most desperate to re-gain. I just can't stand to put the book down again right after picking it up! I know that's the only way I'm going to get past it, but I can't help trying to avoid feeling useless.
All this is just great timing too! >( With my parents leaving for the weekend, I'll have more freedom to do more things (well, what I can do anyway). But when I just start hating everything around me, I can't exactly enjoy anything! Not to mention, I'm not exactly great company right now. Even the dog wags his tail waryily when I go to see him right now.
Anyway, I'm leaving. The words aren't exactly flowing right now like thoughts should, so I should just stop thinking about it and distract myself so I might actually have decent sleep without depressing dreams (the ones last night weren't exactly the best ones I've ever had). Goodbye!
Xilmin visited the elves at 10:05 p.m.
Wednesday, April 30, 2003
Been working my ass off today! Maths and webpage stuff, maths and webpage stuff! Then just for the fun of it more maths and webpage stuff! GYARG! Oh yeah, and I was at the Occupational Therapist today. I think my brain went to sleep through some of what she was talking about, but the point got through: Do more. The same thing she always says. The same thing everyone says. No wonder the brain went to sleep. It's heard it all before. Well, that and she was talking a lot more than usual. Damn monologues! I can't follow them! ::sigh:: Evil non-existant concentration of mine!
Nearly did a whole maths paper today. This time a much more recent one, 1997 Paper I. I thought I had finally finished, and then I discover the next question printed on the back of it. I'm leaving that for tomorrow morning. The tutor is coming again tomorrow. She's not going to be staying long. Just to go over what problems I had. And just in one paper, I still manage to get problems! Sheesh! I know I shouldn't concentrate on what I can't do, but think about the questions I can do... but the answers never feel right like they used to. And she never gave me the answer papers to give me some confidence in my answers (or more likely see I've done something really stupid wrong)
As to what I did on my webpage. New Chobits episode uploaded in a new place. http://shoryu.animeshelter.online.fr Also 2 more Jubei-chan episodes for freeloaders, and some random streamloader stuff. I'm sure I did more, but I don't know what!
Doing so much work really does nothing good for my mood. I think I'm angry. Certainly the keyboard is being battered to bits as I type right now. I scare myself when I'm angry cos that means Akuma, the evil me, gets free reign of everything. I don't like having that in me! ::closes eyes and takes deep breaths:: Hopefully if I watch anime, I'll be able to distract the 'me's enough so I can sleep peacefully... well... normally... well... uh... like I usually do. With the weird dreams or perverted dreams or just plain nonsensical dreams. :S I prefer that over what dreams Akuma may create... not that I can recall any, thankfully. Probably blotted them from my memory.
Gotta go. I was hoping for an early night tonight. Maybe that's a bit late now what with still anime to watch, but the earlier the better. Sayonara!
Xilmin visited the elves at 10:01 p.m.
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
Whatever plans I had today faded just like yesterday. Damn Grand Theft Auto for being so addictive! ::pout:: But I got past the first level... just when I was getting my bearings! Now I'm lost and confused. Plus the cops keep randomly passing by every time I accidentally run over a pedestrian. So I try and hide somewhere until they leave me alone. Doesn't always work. :S I do a lot of accidentally running over pedestrians though (don't have the patience to hang about in traffic jams so I take the pavements ;) ). All my parents can probably hear from my room is: Sorry! Oops! Sorry! Didn't mean that! Gomen! Gomen nasai! SORRY!!! ::sweatdrop::
Anyway, yup, that's what I spent most of the day doing. Although I did watch some more anime. Flame of Recca (new fansub group doing it and it's easier to find now. Yay! :) ) Plus Mikagami rules! But then I'm a sucker for bishounen with that hairstyle. ::sweatdrop:: If only his voice wasn't Heero's. ::pout:: Got to keep reminding myself that it's also Tamahome (even although I don't like him all that much either [too much sap involving him for my taste ;) ]) and Zelgadis (now he's cool... even if he is part golem ;) )
Oh, got an appointment with Occupational Therapist tomorrow. Was desperately trying to fill out the diary she gave me to keep. I was a few days behind, but think I worked it out ok... :S It's been a whole month since I saw her last... and what do I have to show for it? Other than a holiday I didn't enjoy, I can't think of anything. Gyah! And I was sure I was trying to do more stuff recently... well... before I went to Madeira that is.
I am going to have to do more Maths stuff whether I want to or not now though. The tutor came for a little while just so she could go over the problems I had. She told me that the exam is 3 weeks tomorrow... ::gets calendar:: 21st May that is (if I worked that out right). That's not far enough way! And I bet there'll be loads of questions on logs and exponential graphs and trigonometry and other guff like that! All the stuff I get confused at! And even if the questions don't completely stump me, they're bound to take me ages and even with the extra time I'm getting, I'll still not make it. It'll be just like the prelim, only I'll be even more stressed! >S
Gotta change topic. Gotta take my mind away from that since it's too late in the day to anything about it now. I might as well go now anyway. Distract myself with a last episode of a random anime before bed. I'm later than I usually am, thanks to GTA2! :S Sayonara!
Xilmin visited the elves at 10:17 p.m.
Monday, April 28, 2003
Well, plans for today kinda disappeared. The tutor didn't come today... YAY! ...she's coming tomorrow... DOH! Still haven't done any maths work. :S
Then I ended up playing Grand Theft Auto 2 for ages, until Compy got pissed at me and crashed for no reason, so I watched anime instead. Managed to resurrect a couple of GB of space. My download folder is still larger than the actual anime folder, so I am disturbed... yet I don't frantically watch any of the stuff. Stupid mind, not telling me to do the right things.
::drops a raison and hunts after it:: Eh hem... I've been in a pretty good mood lately, probably cos I've been distracting myself so much with the new games. I really should set some sort of hourly timer while I'm playing cos otherwise time disappears. I've lost whole days like that. Although it does stop me thinking, and anything that can stop my mind from whirring away must be commended! ;)
::checks over the latest episode of Jubei-chan that she encoded and ends up just watching all the scenes with Koinosuke:: He's so cool! But then idiotic bishounen always make me perk up. ;) Plus he uses 'gozaru'. Really gotta learn what that means, cos he uses it in almost every sentence. He kills me! :D
Anyway, I'm rambling, and I've lost time again. This time thanks to Pan-chan for showing me a whole load of internet tests. Then I got addicted. I just couldn't be bothered putting the results here. Although I do know my soul originated from the bowls of hell and my inner child is a pervert. ;) Oh yeah, and my flower is a pansy. ::sweatdrop:: Can't remember what else I did... Oh well...
I'm off. Got the last episode of Nanaka 6/17 waiting for me. Yay! Itekimasu! :)
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:38 p.m.
Sunday, April 27, 2003
About yesterday... you see, the thing was... I mean, I did plan to blog... it's just that... when I actually got around to it, it was somewhat later than I had anticipated. I got new computer games! ;) Grand Theft Auto 2 (only a fiver! I couldn't not buy it!) and Schizm. Didn't have a clue what Schizm was, but it sounded cool, just like Myst and I adore Myst (even when I suck), so I got it. It was either Schizm or Neverwinter Nights (or whatever that game is called), but Schizm was cheaper, so naturally that was my choice. I nearly got all 3 but I just couldn't bear to take that much money out of the bank (in one go anyway. I'll probably be back at the store next week ;) )
I do really really like Schizm. Glad I bought it. However, just like Myst, I suck. So naturally I resort to using the walkthroughs I can find on the net. Schizm is even worse than Myst. I had to use tri-something-gent, or whatever (what ppl use to measure distances using geometry). I would never even have recognised one, never mind known how to use one, if I hadn't had the walkthrough. Then the added fun of figuring out the alien numbering as well. I can do that bit on my own though. ;) But aside from the fact that the game is impossible without help, it's fantastic. I'm in awe of the worlds. I wish I could do proper exploring, instead of just clicking on things with the mouse. It would be such a cool planet to visit! I wanna set fics there. Of course I'd have to populate it, cos otherwise it's just plain freaky. And it would be fantastic populated! :D
Anyway, enough of that. What else have I done? Well, there was the whole getting into town to get that and a few other things. Cycled down part way and walked about town, browsing various shops (and probably scaring ppl as I mutter to myself all the time). Now my legs are so very tired. Barely been outside at all today. Just been playing Schizm. I think I've nearly finished the game. ::sweatdrop:: That's the problem with those sorts of games. Very linear, no alternate routes. And I just get so annoyed as I get my bearings and try and go somewhere, it asks for a different CD. There are 5 in total. Bloody hell, no wonder the graphics are so neat... actually, when it comes to movie bits and what-not, it could be better. Some things aren't clear, although maybe that's just the resolution. But despite all the faults, I still adore it. I just wanna draw pictures of it, and put characters in. So cool!
Since that seems to be the only thing my mind is going to ramble on today, I'll leave. Least I'm not drifting off and watching flies outside the window anymore. Can't do that. It's night and they've gone now. ;) And I've got the maths tutor coming tomorrow. ::grimaces:: I haven't touched maths in several weeks, and I don't wanna! But the exam must be less than a month away now, so I don't have a choice. Must keep thinking of the qualification I'll get, and the jobs I'll be able to enter for... uh... somehow I don't think I'll get a job just with maths. :S CRAP! I'm not helping myself! Anyway, I shall go distract myself with anime. Must watch more before Compy keels over and dies from overload! Ja!
Xilmin visited the elves at 09:30 p.m.
